I faced Him today
I meet Him everyday
Never missed a single day
Yet I have never seen Him
I can feel His existence
I know He is here
I know He is there
I know He is everywhere
He is watching over me
But I'm feeling guilty
For not giving my best when I confront him
I think my faith is trembling
Why is this happening?
Help me
I don't want to lose the way
I don't want to go astray
Show me
The truth path of this destiny
Stop me
From getting lost so easily
Just a blink of an eye
I don't know myself anymore
What do I want?
Why am I here?
What's my aim?
Where do I want to go?
Which one should I follow?
And now
I'm trying my best to look for me
Myself, that I've lost once and again
Then I seek for Him
Asking for forgiveness
For every sins I have done
It is so shameful
Take me back to the start
I want to start a new life
"Turn over a new leaf" is what they told me
So I'll use the chance I still have
Before it's gone forever and I am no longer to be here...

Every morning
When I open my eyes
You are the first I will see
Your voice will be singing in my ears
You are the first I can think of
Hello and good morning!

Every night
When I close my eyes
You appear in the darkness
Your voice will be my lullaby
The stories you have told me
Will be my bedtime stories
Goodbye and good night!
So I kiss your shadow and sleep

In dreams
I see you
I see us
Happily together
Sharing stories
You hold me tight
I feel safe in your arms

Seems like everything I do
There is always you
But why must you?
Your shadows follow me to everywhere
And leaving me blue

I lie
I cry
I am fake
This is my fate

Makeups on my face
Is the mask I always wear
My lipstick shows I always smile
But I feel this life is not fair

I like to make people smile
It's a great pleasure
Though they never thanked me once
It's wonderful to have them say "I need you"

I am a clown
I'll try my best to make you laugh
Don't look me down
I have a pride and this is my life

From the darkness I can only see
Beneath me was always black
There was no progress
There was nowhere I can turn back

The world was blackout
Or was it only my world?
I have got nobody to help me out
To break up the darkness that engulfed

But suddenly it has changed
Beneath me is no more black
Colourful world I hoped
Is now coming back

When I set the wheels in motion
I can rise again to the top
No more walking with my head down
This progression I hope it won't stop

I am sure I'm walking on the right path
I am sure I'll find a way
I believe in my heart
I am sure I'll say "Yay"

Dear my best friends,
I have no idea how we have come this far,
I have no idea how we think alike,
I have no idea how I can feel your pain,
I have no idea how I know you are hiding something,
I have no idea how I could trace your sadness,
I have no idea how we are still together after a big fight,
I have no idea how you show me what life is,
I have no idea how we understand each other very well,
That sometimes I have no idea what myself really want,
I have no idea how I feel really comfortable with you,
I have no idea why I always want to be around you,
I have no idea why I always want to protect you,
I have no idea why I always miss you,
I have no idea why I never get bored of your stories,
I have no idea why I feel nobody understands me but you,
I have no idea why am I ignoring the bad things they talk about you,
That sometimes I feel like shutting up their mouth,
But my best friends,
We cannot control their mouth,
But we can control our mouth,
Just let them be until they are tired of bad mouthing you,
Just remember that I am here,
Always.

If I was born to be
Unseen
Ignored
Unheard
Then let me just be invisible

Because no matter how much
I try to expose myself
To speak up what I needed to
Though I have that confidence in me
But everyone just cannot see
All that they see is someone else

Let me just be the shadow
That appears only with the lights
I dont want to live in darkness
Because it scares me

To think that I am so chicken
That I always have something
And wanted to tell the world about it
But I always keep it underneath of my skin instead

I am hiding it from everyone
Not because I dont trust them
It is because I am not sure
That they will listen to me or not

Because I am an invisible girl
Who lives in an invisible world
Where there's nothing else
But me, myself, I and no one cares.

I see myself is naked.
I am showering.
But why there are so many people here?
Why are they so harsh to me?
It is painfully pain, do it slowly.

I see myself is laying down.
Wearing a pure white dress.
I never bought that dress.
I see people are coming.

They're coming to me.
They kiss me and go.
Why are they crying?
Did I hurt them?
I can feel the teardrops on my skin.

Oh there are my family.
They are so near to me.
But why can't they see me here?
I am watching them.

I touched them.
But why can't I feel anything?
I feel so invisible now.
Feeling ignored.

There is a coffin.
Is it going to be my bed?
I do not want to sleep there.
I have to talk to them that I am alive.

They put me in the coffin.
Carry me to a cemetery.
Why are they doing this?
Why they leave me yso soon?

It's so dark, where am I?
I can't breathe, tell me!
Snakes are coming to me.
They are slowly breaking my bones.

Help me!
I can't take it any longer!
Bring me back to life!
But it's just too late.
No one hears me.

I regret for the sins I've done.
Oh God, please forgive me!
Give me back my soul.
I promise I'll be good.