In the darkness I do tread
Is where I lay my tired head
Where I puke the lies I'm fed

They tried to fix me with a med
That sick pill taste like lead
Strapped me to a metal bed

Perhaps shock therapy instead
Hidden in a rotten shed
They did zap me til I's dead

Beat me
Bruise me
Bleed me
Save me

In the darkness
Painful cāress
My wounds I dress

Stand strong
All along
You aren't wrong

That's the bell
This must be hell
As they look down at meeee

Where did the child go?
The one I used to know,
He would talk real slow,
Always wanting to grow

He is gone
Like a fading song
On the breeze
between the trees

He is not under a rock
Nor beyond a casket lock
He is dead in my mind
It seems so very unkind

Innocence lost
A young Lifes cost
Caught in this ever changing place
Wandering hopeless... Not sure where to face

Then the voices strike
Shouting using my mental mic
"Your no good"
"You wish you could"

Try to run
Can't outrun the gun
it's the voices
Criticizing his choices

Beaten and ******
His feet all muddy
Fingers  broken back
His ribs about to crack

Innocent child
His spirit is wild
He refuses to be docile
For the longest while

The voices rise
to cause his demise
to crush the boy
Who cries for a toy

Bullied Into the dirt
His life so very short
A sliver still survives
Struggling hard to thrive

Into the darkness
Of The mind
There are voices
You will find

It may be best
To go get some rest
And leave what's lost
Regardless the cost

My mind is going dark
Trapped in an Ark
I feel the call
Calling me to fall

I fall into pieces
I fold at the creases
Into the deepness
My heart then ceases

On hells doorstep I will wait
An ironclad guard at the rusty gate
For his fiery masters fiery state
An unloved,  unwanted, deserted mate

To Watch over the ****
To guard the gluttonous man
Doing whatever he can
His name is Satan

Misunderstood
Like no other could
Employed by God
To use the ****

To remove the bad from Paradise
To make it safer for the mice
His image is his only vice
He truly is very nice

I feel like a ****
Or magbe just a bug
Afraid I may get swat
Afraid of getting shot

In your eyes
I see my false disguise
That is when I realize
I'm made of purely lies

Lies of sorts
Of different size
From horrible things
To white lies

I want to break
I want to bend
Fight for what's at stake
Until the end

It would brake my heart
For us to part
But it is not there
Its so unfair

No love
no humanity
No peace
No sanity

All thats left
Is a lifeless soul
Just let me go..
Just let me go!

"I dont know where Im going, but Im going to fast, Im going to Crash"

Walking in the sand
Seems so bland
leaving footprints where we stand

It doesnt matter what we say
it will all get washed away
but its our DNA

Its in memories
In the stories
that hides our queries

The little one
that will run
when we are done

The footprints in the sand
of a little boys hand
who will go up to be a man

Ill take a hundred years of hell I deserve then a year in paradise I didn't earn.