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If I'm unnecessarily hurt
I see no other choice
than to push you away
without even using my voice

I'll dig in my heels
I'm so stubborn it's true
can't even be bothered
to waste my anger on you

I'll immediately switch off
very quietly withdraw
wanting to be alone
and nurse these feelings so raw

Acting like a woman scorned
I need much time to forgive
won't be pushed to change my mind
not ready to say 'Live and let live'

It may seem an overreaction
but it's a curse from my past
I'll never take abuse again
there's no room for any more scars

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I have so much fight
to get me through this life
my tongue, I sometimes bite
it can also cut like a knife

Many a determined fight, alone
although I never always realised that.
Fighting my corner at home
and at work, about this and that

Slowly realising, that alone it is
but I'm strong, so I won't submit
never showing my fears
not a single fight I would quit

It seemed like a good disguise
to carry around at the time
no one heard me cry or saw my tears
the many battles were 'all mine'

So now, there's no one there
who thinks I need defending
although there are many who care
just not aware that I need mending

I've created this situation myself
it seemed a good idea at the time
only I do often need help
and so long for a hero by my side

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