Every morning I just have to see your face
When am rushing, you do more than just slow my pace
Middle of the night you caressing me
I love that at times you let me be
we sacrificed a lot, nothing's given free
You're the bravery that makes all my fears flee
My baby,my gentle breeze
Your smile brings my hot heart to a cold freeze
You loved me though I never was a saint
My ****** soul only you could taint
A lifeless canvas that only you can paint
They look and see but you hold me and I feel invisible
A world where we don't find each other feels impossible
It was a crushing weight
It was a worrying sight
You never spoke you just held my arm
You never spoke just made sure I came close to no harm
Troubling times, you just kept mind calm
Rainy days, with you am at the beach resting under palms
You lift my spirits when my soul drops
Encourage me when my plans flop
With you is when my pain stops

I've had enough loss for a lifetime. When the pain is too much,i medicate,then I meditate. When my mind is clear ,I reminisce. I want to see you again, and so I make up heaven. I know eternal bliss is just a fairytale but I have hope. shine on my face once more yellow sun. Light the skies on yet another day of my boring little existence. For they only exist in my memory. If I die they die.

All I know about love is the pain
All I know about the blue sky is that sometimes clouds gather and it rains
I'd hoped that you'd cover me from the rain like an umbrella
The grief blows like a strong wind and am just an umbrella
In loneliness, I drink much wine and think of how it's made from grapes off the vine
Same slow song on repeat, music is beautiful and I think of how it's surely proof of the divine
I was only artificial, a porchlight compared to the sun
If forgetting is a line , can i go before my turn

hiding my eyes so you cant see my soul
am searching for something to make  me whole
i try to be strong but sometimes the weight takes its toll
the nights be cold and dark as coal

my heart is bound in iron clutches
all the broken fragments held together by patches
i try to offload the pain but like a tick onto me it latches
feels like hours but just ten seconds have passed on my watches

Am jumping off a cliff and hoping that before I hit the ground I'll learn to fly
Am avoiding airports, I love planes but I just hate saying goodbye
Am trying to stay awake, I love sleep but I fear the nightmares
Am hoping the sun won't come up because the light will expose all my flaws
Am wearing all the newest clothes but inside am hollow and plastic like a mannequin
Am trying to bring back that smile and sunshine I had before it turned sour
Am working to be the angel I once was before I fell from glory

Am alive, i dug my way out of that grave
its in moments like these that i know i need to be brave
Although i'll never be the same again
i know the struggle wasn't in vain
I've probably never been more afraid
searching for answers, i kneeled and prayed
When i was young i thought lightning was just god taking pictures of the beautiful moments down below
so maybe he's watching over me, i never give in even if i face a thousand blows

Lazima uchoose, dooh ama doze
Lazima uchoose, respect alarm ama uisnooze
Lazima uchoose, ujitume ama ulose
Lazima uchoose, ujibuild au *****

Izi ndo vitu hamtaki kuambiwa, izi ndo the truth
Mnataka niseme life ni smooth but Leo siwasooth
Sherehe Sheria ndio inamaliza mayouth
Ukilewa vuguru, Hadi hunaga matooth


Daily unadial pedi ukidai Mali
Jipende buda na for sure utafika mbali
Imagine ukiwa diani ukiorder wali
Si lazima buy iyo jumu expe ati ju ni Kali

Picha ya Kenyatta Kwa walanje ndo unafaa kusaka
Jipe goals Ka Sancho, salah au saka
Mulla mob, nine lives Ka paka
Usijitreat Ka trash we si takataka

But anyway maisha ni yako
Chaguo ni lako
Ntaachia apo ju naskia mtu Kwa mlango
Am sure ni peng Fulani utoka pango

When people engage you , they expect you to act a certain way or do certain things, these expectations are drawn from past experiences you've shared together, when you try to deviate from their expectations they convince you that that's just who you are, maybe they don't want to be wrong or maybe they don't believe that you have the ability to change, maybe they want to stay the same and reject any change happening around them, anyway the past defines the present but it doesn't define the future
**** anyone who tells you anything different

Consider this
You bring me peace
You give me undiluted feelings of bliss
Your love is soft and warm like a woollen fleece
Consider this
I yearn for your kiss
I give you my whole heart and not just a piece
When i hold you i feel nothing is amiss

I am the debris floating on calm waters wondering when the next storm will be
And when it does finally come like am sure it will
will I end up at the bottom of the sea
Or maybe a new day I will get to see

once one but we split into multiple parts, divide
two bodies moving in opposite directions, diverge
hoped you'd give me all that you have
I gave you all that I had
sadly you gave me less than half
i've never been your fave
all I ever wanted to do was love
and make love to you like a perv
you calmed me down when the world got on my nerves

Let me see your face, your real face
Forget this lifeless mask the world has you wearing
I feel like it would be beautiful

My skin itches like bites from fleas
Can't be me, every time I find me I flee
I try too much to please
God please
I know the truth frees
And cold make everything freeze
God please
I want to own all that I currently lease
I hope it's frictionless like grease
Can I have it all or is it all just an elaborate tease

If God was a poet he'd write about his feelings
About how for the longest time he felt lonely
All alone in the fabric of time and space
Nobody to share his days with

If God was a poet he'd write about his immortality
About how he's destined to never die
For him that day is never coming
To him maybe it feels like a curse

If God was a poet he'd write about death
About all the carcasses and corpses
He won't do a thing about it
He understands that part of the journey is the end

If God was a poet he'd write about love
How two random strangers come to be inseparable
One feeling he/she cant be without the other
But the purest love he'd say comes from a mother

Halt,  you can't proceed with no salt
Nobody's perfect, everybody got fault
Try to reach perfection and you find it's locked up in a vault
You can't proceed with no salt
You don't try too hard you just make mistakes by default
If you knew the real god is in you and is you, would you still kneel and exalt

The music of our love has been muted
The bright colors of our promises have faded away
The calm winds of our kisses turned to dry desert sandstorms
The warm gentle rays of our laughter turned to scorching heat waves

Soft kitten purrs have become screeching screams
Once sinless souls now sinking to the darkest depths of damnation
Daydreams demolished and in their place are dungeons
Serpents slithering in the once stainless snow

Wish I met you back when i had a brick game
But it's okay we chill for hours on the playstation
With you when there's sun and when the rain soaks the ground
Pray i never make you soak the pillow with your tears, I'll always be around
I love when we lie on the bed just talking, its ikea
I'll never miss a chance to show you that i care
When I approached you for the first time you ignored me, that's okay, stranger danger
But am glad I persisted, I lingered longer
I can hear the clock chime
I want to hold you for all of time

How did I get here?
Was this always my pre-ordained destination?
I find myself amongst strangers
In common ,the angst in all our minds is major
I can see desparation and longing on their faces
Does the inherent need for company and companion bring us all together to such places?
We may all manage to bury our grief
But the efforts at suppression turn out to be brief
How did I get here?
This is the question I need desperately answered
Thoughts of days gone by ravaging my mind like a cancer
Some do it to remember ,others to forget
Eventually all end up upset
A temporary moment of false calm and consolation
These are the perks and privileges of self medication

thought i didn't have it in me to feel again but to my surprise love is swimming to the top
you give me love and affection, filling my heart with hope
so much joy, i hardly notice that times are tough
its windy, its rainy, its cold but with you its warm enough
i pray the day never comes when i have to give you up
so that i see your face every morning i get up

I want a heart that can't be shot down
I want endless laughter that can't be drowned
I want to be all smiles no frowns
I want my days to be colorful like the graffiti I see downtown

I want you to kiss my lips
I want to dream of you when I sleep
I want you to know I'll always be here am for keeps
I want you for every season even in autumn when trees shed their leaves

I want a picnic under that cool tree shade
I want those memories that never fade
I want to be the one that stayed
I want you to know you're the most beautiful soul god ever made

I want that love that warms me down to my core

my heart is drowning in sorrow
no confidence to face tomorrow
the blue skies are gone
am aching down to the bone
on my mind thoughts of pain, rain
it's all in vain
hidden beneath this smile is gloom
withering flowers, no chance of a bloom
a rainbow in black and white
a bird with broken wings, no flight

love is effortless, a leaf floating on the mild wind
love is the remedy, loneliness a deadly disease and you're the cure
love is water, in its absence you'd die of thirst
love is selfless, for you I would bleed
love is blind, it overlooks misteps and misdeeds
love is king, you're the ruler of my heart
love is light, a single smile and the darkness disappears
love is the universe, it's infinite
love is a hero, it rescues from deep despair
love is alien, out of this world
love is addictive, you're the drug that I fiend
love is music, it heals the soul
love is like a child, innocent and true
love is gravity, pulls you close each time you feel like flying away
love is a mystery, holmes couldn't solve it even if he tried

Inseparable lovebirds since college
The road to your heart and you gave him passage
Finishing each other's sentences, you were speaking the same language
Remember breakfast in bed, toast and sausage
He was shy but finally built up the courage
And that's how you ended up in marriage
Didn't think you'd end up a hostage
Used to be love but now it feels like carnage
Your heart is bleeding, emotional damage
popping pills twice the dosage
And now your thinking of packing your luggage
Coz on your face you have a new bandage
You are strong without him ,you can manage
This is my message
Leave

You light up my days like a lantern
I've noticed am happy each time am with you, it's a pattern
And with each moment my heart grows fonder
Each time I hope time slows down and we're here longer
My heart is overwhelmed with joy like a young bird when it learns to fly
I can't love you perfectly but I promise I'll try
You're my poison
It's like you got me under some love potion
I want to be with you till the day I ride in a hearse
I want to hold your hand and carry your purse

I dug myself into a hole
I am now just a fraction of the whole
Everything slipping out of my control
Am a red alert if you're on danger patrol

I didn't see the signs
Should have quit the lines
As salty and bitter like brine
Aware it's my last supper but still I dine
Say it's sublime but nothing is fine
Need victory but defeat is mine
If I'm to forget, I'll need more than wine
Can't face this, it's as hard as swallowing a pine
Hate this moment like a moslem despises a swine

I often wonder if you'll remember me
When am no longer in sight
When am far away from this happy place
Will you remember the uncorruptible joy
And the tears
If you ever do remember the tears, don't forget the shoulder you leaned on
Oh the things I did just to see that smile back on your face
Remember the blinding colors , as vibrant as youth
And the music, heavenly
If ever there was proof of God it would be music

the country was laden with corpses, carcasses and calamity
the streets were full of strife and suffering
hearts were burdened, backs were heavy with baggage
all hopes dead, all heads bowed down, all starry dreams denied,
every step treacherous, every eye ever tearful, every lip trembled
energy drained, envy reigned
demons and devils danced, demeaning and devoid of delight

I've waited for your love like parched ground waits for rain
Only your kisses can quench these thirsty lips
I've longed for your love like a weary soldier longs for his home
Your smile made my dying heart joyous, and its once again brimming with life
I live for you like a pirate lives for gold and for the sea
You are my oasis in this vast desert that is life

Far away from hope
God can't help you now
Like been buried deep under the cold unforgiving snow
Limbs numb, life seeping out

Far away from hope
Embracing despair like you would a lover
Like floating in space
Lungs heaving, life seeping out

Far away from hope
Finally accepting your fate
Like falling off a high place
Last prayers, life seeping out

Far away from hope
Fading into the unknown
Like drowning in a vast ocean
Never fight it, life seeping out

Far away from hope
A shadowy figure hovers
Like bleeding out on the floor
A glorious scene, life seeping out

If love is a drug, is it possible to overdose?
Fill the cup till it overflows
Fill the river till it breaks the banks

Am standing where the roads meet
Am hoping the road ahead is longer than what's behind me
Or maybe am just not long for this world
Feels like time is against me
Am it's opponent
My time is running out
That's the reason I can't sleep at night
Coz every remaining minute I want to spend with you
Every second I want to see your face
And maybe memorize every single feature
Treasure every imperfection
Coz baby am not long for this world
I try but ultimately I fail
I tremble every time we touch
And am hypnotized every time we kiss
Am brave but in this moment am afraid I might lose you
My eyes will never see you again

Broken bones and fractures
Bent crumbling structures
Crawling hellish monsters
Hungry circling vultures
He never foresaw this rupture

The blood in his veins becomes venomous
Vehemently vicious and villainous
Vivid visions of violent vivisections
Vincent is extremely livid
Once virtuous as a ******
Once vainglorious but now just vestigial
Everything vast turns vaporous

You heal my pain
With you I never feign
You consume me like a fire
Hold my hand and I would never tire
Whisper in my ear
And dispell all my foolish fears
Stitch up my countless tears
Wipe away my salty tears

There's no one like you around
I still can't get you
Same difference
Red is for danger
Green is good, good to go
Am color blind, same difference
He's got too much to see
And he's hopelessly blind
I wanna say same difference
He's selfish and we were made in his image
He never answers when I pray
Same difference
She can't samba
I have two left feet
Same difference
Call it euthanasia
And I have no reason to live
Same difference

All our gods are deaf and mute
They can't hear our prayers or maybe they do but choose not to answer
All my friends are strangers
Just people I pass time with but never really open up to
All my senses are numb
Addicted to social media, forget about thin white lines
All my bones are brittle
I will run to you even if I break each and every one
All boys are the same
But you'd be surprised the lengths she'd go to, to impress a **** who doesn't deserve her
All control is just an illusion
So maybe just let go and go with the flow
All my best days are ahead
One day I will die but each day before that I will live

Sandwiched between my blankets
I can hear the low rumble of thunder outside
The skies are darker than usual
Dim light is coming through my window

Am half drunk, half bored
Am half naked but not cold
Am half way through this new love song I just discovered
Am lost in my thoughts tryna stay optimistic, that glass half full mentality

I should get out of this place soon
Its the tenth time am having this thought in the last ten minutes
Can't keep it off my mind
Cant leave even if I use all my might

Chained down by all the good memories
Slowed down by that beautiful girl who promised she'd kiss me
Tryna take my first step but am paralysed
Tryna be brave but am terrified

I now know for sure what I once suspected
Looking into a lover's eyes is like staring up at the constellations
Its like star gazing

I let myself be bare
Open and exposed naked as the day I was born
All could see me yet I couldn't see myself
An open book all could read but none understood
One moment elation the next not in the mood
There cold and confused I stood
Staring at their faces
Some were seemingly sad some artificially happy some In-between but none content
All aloof and alone not one could connect
All dreading closing time for there was no one to go home to
Some in complete terror not even a home to go to
I have to admit that at times I felt scared too
I felt no glimmers of hope I saw no glimpses of light
Too weak to put up a fight

We've been here a thousand times
You down on your knees, begging me to take you back
And me kissing you saying its all okay
But last time was the last time
Wounds don't heal if you keep touching them

I was drunk when I wrote this
So don't judge me when you read this
You probably didn't notice
But when it comes to love am a novice
Am no Casanova
Am not the kind of boy girls drool over
You loved me all the same
My restless heart only you could tame

My head is clear , you helped me make all the toxic thoughts retreat
I was at the lowest point but still you asked me to smile and your impact was I remained intact
I shed off that ever clinging pain and self loathe
You opened my eyes to finally see my worth
You made me feel good , you were and still are my soul food
When I only hoped for a raft you became my boat
Please accept this thank you note

I get bored and I check my feed
There's a first world crisis somewhere in leeds
New bullet train in Tokyo, they praise it for it's speed
Some CEO resigns , he couldn't control his greed
Meanwhile more civilians continue to bleed
But in the polls the president is still gaining a lead
Money laundered with the help of some Swedes
Two weeks later they've all been freed
Stoners calling for the legalization of ****
Thunberg about to get a nobel for all her deeds
She says we should all plant more seeds
For now that's all the update I need
I go back to playing assasins creed