my happiest days came not when i had no troubles but when i chose to ignore them
my fears ended not when i ignored them but when i chose to face them

you taught me how to laugh away my tears
gave me the courage to face my fears
when there was sorrow on my mind ,you could tell
picked me up when i fell
when i fell for you, i was glad to learn that it was mutual
you ask me what i want, a kiss on my forehead, the usual

Late at night and am bored
Headphones on ,am tryna drown my idle mind in music
Am smiling thinking how good the day was
The lyrics start to sink deep
On most days I just want to fall asleep
My thoughts start to trip
Sometimes I feel majestic, like mighty waves rocking a ship
On occasion am unsure and afraid
wolves set loose upon sheep
it's clear the music ain't working
Guess it's back to counting sheep

Your love is the reverse forbidden fruit
The more bites I take, the harder it gets to leave eden

After you left my blood turned to mercury and I was too heavy to move
After you left they did an x-ray and the doctor said my heart looked rattled up
After you left tiny waterfalls appeared right under my eyes
After you left my favourite song sounded like the screams of a siren
After you left my mind went blank and words turned to symbols with no meaning
After you left sadness ruled the night and sorrow seized the day

A bed poem
Something I write as it pours outside
Something I write as I think of what it's like to not be alone
Wishing you were by my side

A bed poem
Something i write when the night is quiet
Something I write as I stare into the photograph
Longing for the good old days, my mind drowning in nolstagia

A bed poem
Something I write as I try to guess what I'll dream about
Something I write when in my heart something is lacking
Don't know how I got here, I must've been lucky

A bed poem
Something I write because you only call occasionally
Something I write because poetry is a good mode of expression
And am not ready to open up to anyone

the moment I held your tender hands I felt a new kind of love
i always hoped this day would come
now that's it's here I hope to never let you down

i look at your innocent clueless eyes and I well up with tears
you've already found a place in my heart
a warm yellow halo floats above your head

Notes from my days in hell
pray to God I make it out alive and well
Raise up my hands and kneel
Hope these wounds eventually heal
Maybe I'll finally be able to feel
Lying on my bed completely still
Am constantly hurt, wish I was strong like the man of steel
Wish I was free from all these pills
Even my smallest fears give me chills
When am sleeping I dream of love and unimaginable thrills
I was selfish, for my own happiness I was willing to ****
Want to get to a place where I can forgive myself of all my ills
Conquer every valley, mountain and hill

It started with a spark but every time you kiss me, you feed the flame
If I lose myself tonight you're to blame

Nigwedete na ngoro yakwa yothe
All am saying is that I love her with all my heart
Wi muthaka ta muraika
All am saying is that she's as beautiful as an angel

Call to the heavens ,pastor
Do not slow down ,faster
Supernatural force, ghost, casper
worldwide calamity, disaster
*******, *******
Opposite of slave, master
Small but reach my full potential, mustard
Read the news, caster
Italian food, pasta
Whip my hair back and forth, rasta
Keep it all clean, duster
He gathers all his courage, muster

I can see through you
I can see through your lies
Most importantly, I can see through your half truths and false promises
I can see through your flattering words and your false charm
I can see that I have been stupid to believe a word you said
I can see now that it was all just an elaborate facade
I can see you were just a foe carefully disguised as a friend
I can see it was all air and vapour masquerading as tangible matter
I can see that it was all theatre , a fool I was to think it was factual
I can see that I thought I could see but in reality I was blind
I can see that it was just a well crafted illusion
I can see that all you brought me was confusion
I can see that I was subject to your unprompted rejection
I can see that you were never willing to alleviate my dejection
I can see that I would never be part of your selection

You are a goddess
You had me the moment we met, I confess
And it's not just because of all the heavenly features you possess
I'd say you're out of my league if I had to guess
Never thought you'd show up when I gave you my address
You alleviate my stress with each second we caress
You're my refuge every time am in distress

I express my love in unsent letters
Promising to give shelter, everytime you come across unfriendly weather
Am right there with you when you're lost in the storm, feeling fearful and light as a feather
I just want to know whether, there's a chance that one day our hearts will be tethered
When am restless and moving too fast you're my pacesetter
Am sinful,maybe even soulless but everyday you make me better

I like where this going
Feeling sky high like flying in a boeing
Love for who i am, no room to judge
**** the loneliness, it's a purge
This girl I love she be my queen
Make it be better than its ever been
My lifeline in this endless ocean, a raft
Naturally gifted at giving joy, maybe her craft
Mind-blowing like the monalisa, everypart of her be pure art
Eternally attracted to each and every part

Love is like when a base meets an acid
The deterioration is quite rapid
Love is crazy, a majestic hound gone rabid
Your arrow finally hit me, nice shot cupid

Am scared to die so I wear a face mask
Can't help but think of all the questions I never asked
I can't breathe like am stuck in a vacuum flask
Thank God for this liquid aged in casks

I don't do it because I want to
I do it because my culture demands it
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because if I don't my family and friends look at me funny
I don't do it because I want to
I do it for the fans
I don't do it because I want to
I do for the money and fame
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because that's the game and I'm just a player
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because that's how it has always been done
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because I don't want to be an outcast
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because deep down am afraid I'll be shunned
I don't do it because I want to
I do because I lack the will to change what I've become
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because we somehow decided collectively this is how it should be done
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because it seems better to part of the flock rather than the black sheep
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because they told me to never deviate from the plan
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because I was raised to never question

Jesus once said love others as you love yourself
What happens when you don't even love yourself ?

Sites to behold
A time to be bold
Tales to be told
Mysteries to unfold
Calm and composed
Secret and undisclosed
Triumphant and unopposed
Unpretentious , truth overdosed
Broke away from the stranglehold
Blessings sevenfold
Beautiful moments foretold
Brass turns to gold

You said to yourself that you were done for
All the while tears welled up in your eyes
But you must not give in
You must not give up
The world owes you happiness after all you've been through
You must live ,so as to one day claim it
And I promise that day will feel like heaven, eternal rest
Your reward for all those storms and tests