you ever feel like your head’s in the dirt?
and everything is
blurry? and every
word you hear sounds too
slurred to even stand
a chance of hurting?

and yet the worst
things fly high in your mind
like birds of worry? and
you hurriedly
misinterpret, the world is
cryptocurrency,
and the only thing
you’re sure of is
that uncertainty is certainly
the only purpose
you’re serving

but on the surface,
you stay working,
and learning, and
let the bourbon wash away
that lurking serpent of
nervousness that
snuck in through
a curtain that’s flirting
with closure,
undeterred by
the purple you’ve been
turning ever since you
realized you’ve submerged
yourself into Earth and its
absurdities

we talked about the future like it was already here
like tomorrow would be the day our life started
it felt like i could reach out and touch it
and my skin grew warm from the sunshine woven around my heart

With your coloured ribbons
you look so nice and
friendly
and when I touch your skin
it makes me wonder
what people ask for

and I step back to get
a good look at you
and wonder
what will I ask for?

And when it comes to me it is
the most peaceful feeling
ever-
that I ask for
nothing
because I know
everything is already
in motion and
coming to me.

i realise, its because i put too much importance on myself

if i truly understood the reality of my existence - nothingness, entire dependence to Him

then there is no need to be upset
no need to feel so down or betrayed or frustrated...
things come and go
He knows best...

This leaf's life cycle is much like our own
it grows from a much more mature tree
blossoms and ages,
changes with the seasons,
explores and fly's with the wind,
and eventually,
withers into bits before it's absorbed back into the earth

I brought it to you
so you always know where to find me,
beyond the pines,
waiting to grow,
change,
fly,
and wither
with you

She seemed to think my name
could be Clark Kent
and she knew my alter-ego.

But, my Kryptonite
is expectations.

...super.

Your soul is within
The universe is without
Both are infinite

Evoking visions earth removed
Mind in numb defence falls upon love
Obediently facing
The heavens eternal
Imitating; never seeing a naked imperfection that yesterday
Offered falsehoods
Never understanding and never can escape
                                                         rc