A convolution of illusions
a mirror of houses

you can touch
But you can't look

home is where the heart felt
the window of opportunity
is not as it appears

theres no door for
opportunity to knock here

Examine the picture
the landscape rocks bare

backyard is cinder blocks
jungle of concrete
gated community
black metal fences

grass ain't greener
on the other side
it's just pretending

Artificial turf
intellectual property
constructed
on top of dirt

priceless
nothings worth

Building
a million stories
No won's heard
Wild cattle famished
Tragic loses perturbed

I gather
well rather disturbed

Collective incidents
Between the cracks
Inconspicuous
You had to observe

For the eminent
Collapse may seem
Absurd

A Foundation built
Upon a house of words
Could stand and withstand
As far as we've known

I told you this would last forever
But I lied
I said things will never change
But I lied
I told you you were beatiful, even though I can't explain beauty
So I lied
I told you Red was a beatiful color
but who and what describes beauty?
For they say the beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder
I say it's mostly directly proportional to how you feel about a person
Excuse my mathematical jargon because I'm no Mathematician
Don't they say in the Bible that King Solom wore Purple, the color of beauty, the color of wisdom
But who am I to tell it different so, I lied
I said your skin was as smooth as silk and as beautiful as vanilla but, was it?  Was it really? I know I couldn't tell the truth so, I lied

I told you your eyes are beatiful, your eyes are big, twinkly
Maybe I lied, it was just your pupil dialating when it saw my light
I told you I could give you the world,
But the world was not mine to give to begin with, but baby its what you wanted so, I lied
I also told you the sky was green, the sea was blue, and you believed every word, I'm sorry

Maybe I lie a bit too much, or maybe just enough, or maybe that's also a lie
It's mostly to protect you

Remeber that day at the park?
I held you in my arms
The world didn't seeze to exist but us
We swore to be together for life, was it a lie
You said you're mine forever and I'm yours too, or was it also a lie?
Can't keep with the lies no more

It's lie after lie because that's all what you seem to believe
Because truth to you, seems too good to be true
I remember the day you held my hand, looked me in the eye and said, "do you still love me? "
I know I used to answer that everyday with no doubt in my mind, but that day,
The answer remained the same,
As I said proudly, "I still do babe"
Guess what?...

“Withdrawn from Salem Public Library”

“Salem Public Library, East Main Street,
Salem, VA 24153”
A happy book, thought-stained, and often-read
An anthology of Russian poetry

Salem, Virginia must be a marvelous town
A library stocked with poetry, and stocked
With poetry readers who have turned again
And again to favorite pages here and there

Long-ago poets murdered by the Soviets
But finding love at last in Salem, Virginia

It's perfection when I kiss your lips,
This is a desire I just can't fix,
Oh somethings just aren't meant to be,
Now I see you were never really in love with me.
I was just somebody to get you through,

until you move onto the next dude. 

I just can't find any reason why,

I should give you anymore of my time
,
you’re draining the essence of my soul.

You may have been my perfect fantasy,

but now I see, that it was all just a dream.

Now it's never gonna happen, 
no not with me.

Because I'm sick of you walking out on me,

leaving me to question everything I feel deep down inside,

and I'm so clueless as to why, 

you couldn't even give me an explanation.

Maybe I just had to much expectation, 

of trying to feel all of your sensations.

And my spirit just keeps dying,
every time you steal my breaths,

turn around and tell me to stop there.

I thought this was passion, not just lust.

Seems this whole time I thought this was love,

Oh wrong again, looks like you’re gonna reject me all over again.

And why should I be surprised?

I believed in every one of your lies.

And out of all the memories, 
you were the best of them.

There you go turning my life upside down again.

Seems nothing is making much sense, anymore.

Girl I know I'm done playing these games.

Should of seen it coming from the start,

should of known you would break my heart.

I should of known, you wouldn't play your part,

I should of known, that this would fall apart.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Have you ever met someone,
that made you reevaluate your life.
It's there spirit,
it breathes in new life.
You're like that breath of fresh air
,
That I really needed
You've got that, love of my life,

Kind of vibe,

and nothing's gonna kick us down.

I'm ready to take that ride,

by your side, love is blind, 

but not in these eyes,

I can see it in your face,

In the way that you speak,

you're that girl for me.

©2017 Written By Benji James