"This is nice?"
You stated nervously, as if it where a question you shouldn't be asking.

I nodded.
- Cringing at your lack of confidence

"Yeah it is, Thankyou."
- for teaching me how to be fake.

"I'm glad your having a nice time"
You said, fiddling with the zip on your jacket pocket.

I could not reply, I just smiled numbly.

You smiled too.
- numbly.

This was when I realised I was talking to myself.

Taking to someone who's thoughts, where so similar to my own.

Talking to someone who was always asking.

I had caught a glimpse of what it was like to be around me, and hated it.

- I hated me.

I hated my unsteady heart beat, my constant need for reassurance.

I hated that I craved acceptance and would do anything to receive it.

I hated that I was so scared of disappointing him, like you where scared of disappointing me.

- I hated the fact I was fragile

Your fingers slowly brushed against my palm, I guess you where asking if we could hold hands, but I moved away.

You where so shy and so sweet and so good, I knew that, but I also knew me.

*- I couldn't hold into something that I knew was going to break.

I love you
not because
you're good looking

I love you
not because
you're caring

I love you
not because
you dote on me

I love you
not because
your smiles are sweet

I love you
not in lust
of your crevice
or orifice
or skin

I love you
because
without you
I feel

incomplete within.

love never hurts, they said
bruises on the back like an abused child
took me to hell instead of heaven
but I guess heaven only exists within us
never ready, always teary
horrid dreams of what could have been my future
drowning my face in water to wipe my tears
always wet, but never get laid
broken hearted, souls empty, nobody to share my pain with
***** on deck to ease the pain
my pen running out of ink to pen my painful thoughts
darkness covering my life; lost in the wild
feeling like a wolf; so cold

I do not love you as Romeo loved Juliet, tragic misunderstanding, spurned by society's blind perception.

You are no angel sent from heaven above, God's promise made flesh just for me.

We are not soul mates separated by time yet brought back together by Cupid's arrow.  

I am not a frog prince whose kiss will wake you from your long aimless sleep.

Your dragons are you own, good luck slaying them.

I will not build you a tower to look down upon me from above,
Nor will I climb it in some idiotic feat to win your passing fancy.

My love for you is not some tale told by faeries to orphans to give hope of a better life, of a love for each and every one of us, tragic as it may be.

I love you, simply.

Leaves blowing in the wind are just waving hello
as they try and remember which branch
they fell from even though they know
it's their last descent as the sun walks them home.

I've felt every single emotion while thinking about you and I've known you 5 days.

If this isn't something special then I don't know what is..

everywhere life moves-
through any space-
Art has been, and taken place

Your body.
My body.
Totally different body's.
That over time have became one.
You have made mistakes.
I stayed by your side.
I have done some bad things.
Your still by mine.
I hope we can stay one for the rest of our lives.
I promise I will not tell half truths or lies.
I believe you will promise the same.
I know we have lost some trust.
I'm willing to work hard to get it back.
Your my one and only.
My forever and always.
My knight and shining armer.
Who one day will ask me to be his queen.
So I can say.
My king.
Jonathan.
You are my everything.
You always will be.
I can't wait till the day I can stand in front of everyone.
Look at my ocean eyes.
And say to my fifty shades.
I Do.