drop me in the ocean,
let my arms wave.
let me drown
in the waters uncharted
and regained.
balloons floating above me,
filled with my unconscious dreams.
I struggle and tug at the strings strangling me

knock knock
who is it?
love
love who?
love you

go away, you're not welcome
I don't need you
you're just a stupid feeling
a disease that violate our hearts and souls
that make our eyes go blind
and changes our perception of things
you make everyone sick as you pass by

you pretend you're perfect
that everything is beautiful
and it will stay that way forever

but then you go
go without a warning
leaving a hole where once was a heart full of you

I still have the scars of your name in my chest
I still remember the tears I droped for you

why you just came back now?
why now?
why after all this time?

didn't you know I was waiting for you
to knock on my bedroom door?

I let myself go insane

gorgeous little
gypsy queen

fiery and wild thing

mislead and
fed common disease

you don't know
what you mean to me

I won't falter
I won't fuss

even though all that
is all of us

I've never made it
this far before

and as such kicked
down every door

but there's no rhyme
or reason
this shifting of seasons
is breaking me down
one atom by one

this wanting and needing
& hoping and feeling
brings me close to end,
though it's only begun