This Stage is Called Awakening

This Stage is Called Awakening Jul 2017

As she walked through the forest
Daydreams caught in her mind
But these dreams were of a different kind
Dreams of what was, and wasn't to be
Dreams of the person she could no longer see
She longed for the sun to rise and sing
But all she could see were the shadows storm clouds bring
So she ran through the forest to get away
But these shadowy dreams continued to stay
Leaving heartache in every step
Everywhere she looked she saw death
Disaster, destruction, despair for miles more
That is all she expected to find in store
And yet within a light still shone
This light was not her own
It was a hope which had been breathed into her
Breathed into her by one that loves her sure
He was the one for whom she kept walking
The one who had given her this hope
And so on and on she went by it
Until her soul found what she had sought
A place she could rest and call her home
A place where she was no longer alone

Me and lost poet wrote this together it's my first joint poem I really like it

Jul 2017

Gerry Aldridge

I want To Turn Feelings Into Words.

I want To Turn Feelings Into Words.

I enjoy the struggle
To make a sentence beautiful.
Use the right adjective,
Or the precise adverb
Which is suitable.

I strive to turn emotion
Into something
We can read.
Something other people
Will believe,
Open up and
Let themselves bleed .
For,

There is nothing more sad
Than an unhappy person
Deprived of honesty and worse.
Believe in nothing,
Except the lies
They nurture
In the safety
Of their own
Universe.

(Gerry Aldridge © 2017)

#love #creativity

This Stage is Called Awakening Jul 2017

Watching

I look out the window
I see the sky
I watch these birds fly by
They glide with the wind
Rise up against the swells
Where they go no one tells
It is all a mystery
The way the birds fly
The reasons people always die
The reason I'm always alone
Remains completely unknown
Atleast to me
It may be easy for others to see
But I know not
This is my plot
And im alright with it
So long as I get to watch
For watching brings no pain
It is only in the actual act of soaring
That one can ever fall
So whats the point of trying at all?

Just a random poem I thought up.

#soaring #falling #flying #birds

Jun 2017

Day

Travel

If I could go anywhere in the world
I would go back in time to a little girl,
to myself, at 8 years old,
and make the world seem a little less cold.
I would tell her not to cry
keep her chin up and keep her eyes dry.
I would tell her to love her mother
for she loves you like no other
After this I would travel on
to 14 year old me, thought she was gone.
I would tell her, please don't use the blade
for those scars you make, they will not fade.
Please just go and ask for help
i'd scream at her but she wouldn't yelp
for she thought that this would help her then
couldn't see a future where she'd smile again
next i'd go and visit mom
i'd sit with her and keep her calm
Tell her about the pain i hid
I know she really loved her kid
she didn't see how much i hurt
all she saw were angry spurts
now i'm filled with much regret
wish i could just forget
but adversely we can't go back
as much as i wanted that
moving forward, it will not stop
we just keep on going until we drop
i try to think now what would i say
if future me, came to me today
what would she tell me?
what does she know?
i guess that i will see
when i get there, you know?

#movingon

This Stage is Called Awakening Jun 2017

Keep trying

I know I'm a failure,
But I'm a failure who's gonna keep on trying.

I want to keep trying despite the fact that I seem to constantly fail.

#failure #trying

This Stage is Called Awakening Jun 2017

Not alot

I dont have alot of friends
But now i have one less than not alot

#friends #sad #oneless #broken

This Stage is Called Awakening Jun 2017

Mutual Agreement

A mutual agreement
To rip each others hearts out
A mutual agreement
That we simply wont work together
I have to wait atleast a year
And he cant wait for just a year
Two different people
Who just didn't think it through
Who rushed head long
And who are both broken now
It makes it easier that it was mutual, sure
But it still hurts
And im still gonna miss you
Im gonna miss you alot
I really liked him
The first boy who ever liked me back
The first relationship i had ever been in
Lasted less than two whole months
Now isn't that just sad
Well I certainly am
He was so great
But we weren't meant to be
And i know i can trust God in this
And i know he has something big in store for both of us
But right now it still hurts
And my heart still aches
And im still gonna miss you
And im still gonna think about you
And im sorry i ever said i liked you back
Im sorry we ever went down this road
Because not only did i lose a relationship
But i also feel like i lost the friendship
And it was such a good friendship
And im gonna miss it
And im gonna miss you