so today you sat by me at lunch and tried to talk to me
just like i said you would
even though your new best friend is in our lunch too
so why did you do that?
why did you that knowing that you would go back to her
the next period
gossiping with her
instead of with me
why did you do that completely aware
that it would hurt me
physically
mentally
and emotionally

hey, it's me again
i'm just calling to say
that the sunset
reminded me of you tonight
so enticing
illuminating
and beautiful
but at the same time
so intense
fiery
and passionate
drawing me in
closer and closer
until i'm in your presence
and within a moment i'm
drenched in darkness
danger
and silence

i stay
only because
the dazzling starlight
hidden in the rubble
of darkness
reminds me of
the moments before dusk

i'm searching for
someone who actually
cares about me
someone who notices
my presence
and preferably,
craves it

your eyes
focused on me
until i look back at you
you shyly turn away
and i’m left to wonder
whether i’m crazy
or you feel the same way

remind me
why my heart breaks
when you touch my face

remind me
why anymore when i see you
my heart doesn’t race

remind me
why when i think of you
i almost feel mad

remind me
why your words hurt me
and make me feel bad

please
i’m begging you
remind me

i feel myself
losing the emotions
i once felt deeply for you
and catching feelings
for another
i'm sorry
but my heart doesn't flutter
when i see you anymore
my heart is busy
pining
but not for you

i fear myself
hurting you