i try to make it look like i'm okay but i'm lying
and no one sees through the smile and sees that i'm crying
i keep pretending that things are fine
i can't keep walking this line

why can't you see i'm broken

i want to delete all the memories
just like i did with all our pictures
i want to forget our history
and act like we're strangers
i don't want to miss you anymore
i want to get over you and close the door
i know you're not missing me
i know this is how it's meant to be

You convinced me to go home with you
After a night of good fun
I knew I shouldn't have trusted you
How could I have been so dumb ?

It started out with a kiss
A little bitter from the wine
I was in a state of bliss
Everything was just fine

But then I froze in shock
Your hands were down my shirt
I couldn't even move
As your hand went up my skirt

I wanted you to stop
But I was petrified by your actions
The sweet man I knew
Became a monster needing satisfaction

You took what you wanted
I couldn't stop you
You left marks on my body
***** my mind too

Two days ago
You were telling me
All of the reasons
Why you love me

Two days ago
Out of class you would sneak
Just to come hug me
You made my heart weak

Two days ago
You called me your everything
I felt happy
But today I am nothing

Two days later
You said you couldn't do this
Breaking my heart with those words
Now you're the one that I miss

Two days later
I see you in the halls
I look away
As tears start to fall

can everything just stop
so that I can breathe
because I can't handle
the obstacles you're throwing at me

I try to stay away
from all of my emotions
you shed no tears
while I've cried oceans

I keep things hidden
behind a clever facade
so that no one will know
that i'm a character, who's incredibly flawed

Do you remember me darling?
Or am I just another past fling?
Remember how I left you wanting?
I treated you like a king.

I gave you my all
All I asked was for you to fall
Fall into a state of eternal bliss
Where only I could feel your kiss.

But no, that's not what you longed for
I gave you everything yet you wanted more
You told me you loved me
That I was all you needed to be happy.

You wanted body
You wanted ***
I was too pure
That's why you left.

I didn't go looking for you
You found me
The two of us meeting
Was a stroke of serendipity.

The story of two lovers
That could never be
Is a perfect description
Of you and me.

I'd listen intently
As you'd recite
Never ending stories
Of all the girls you liked.

Tell me why don't you
Why it cannot be me
My unconditional love for you
Is something you cannot see.

I hope one day you realize
That I'm the one for you
Darling you are my wonderwall
But you haven't got a clue.