M - Hello Poetry

M Jun 2019

I never know what say

a memory of longing
is painful as it keeps

decaying in my chest

putting my love on paper
doesn't take it away
it amplifies the sting
trying to move on

infecting the open cavity of my being

you read my words like you understand
but I'm lost in a memory of what would have been

trying to collect shattered pieces of my own self

emptied and dancing whisked into the shadows
like the end of a dream

feverishly waking up because my feelings weren't received

give them but don't get them
like as if I sent a letter of longing

never in return

I try to write but the words are my tears
drink up
and only then you will feel the same
as I do

M Jun 2019

Waves

I'm trying to find a reason
a reason to make me stay.
I'm lost and anchored to a hope
that I will find my way.
The shadows swallowed me as a whole
and I am truly beat.
I cannot -will not sing my song
until the grounds beneath my feet.

M Mar 2018

Why did I plant my flower, in a garden filled with poison soil?

Damning myself to grow purposefully alone?
Fumes of death surround my love, and tear apart my home.
Are you between the leaves and evergreens amidst the midnight moon?
I stare into the grey toned sky, my dear, has left too soon.
Find me now beneath the hour, with the ever rising sun.
I mustn't regret the choice at hand, the deed, it has been done.

#poetry #flowers #love #poem #life #death

M Mar 2018

Brown Eyes

Nobody ever talks' about your eyes.
Like how they swirl with hidden ember, and fallen leaves. And how they have the depth and mystery of a dark abyss. Pulling you in, really making you take a deeper look.
Nobody ever talks' about how they flicker with smoke, and fire each time the light shines 'just right' on them. And how they seem to have the whole world entangled into an innocent ring of rope. Like a warm round cup of coffee, bittersweet. Addictive.
Nobody ever talks' about how they make you feel ever-more engaged, like you could be looking into a whole universe, a whole soul. Pulling you in, making you dream of dim lit fires and smokey silhouettes sprawled against a midnight moon.
I get lost in your eyes. I feel found in your eyes. And I crave your eyes.
But nobody ever talks' about your eyes.

#eyes #poetry #love #poem #browneyes #mpoems

M Mar 2018

I found someone new

It doesn't hurt me anymore, how it did when I loved you.
The echo of bitter regret, no longer creates stories in my dreams.
I no longer get nervous when I think of your playful smile.
I can't even remember the feeling of excitement I got when you entered the room.
The willingness to admire all of your jokes, disappeared along with the sink hole that I felt in my stomach with every laugh.
I can't imagine ever even having the thought cross my mind that you were ever going to love me back, but I guess it is my fault for never telling you how I felt.
But it doesn't matter.
It doesn't hurt anymore.
Love isn't right if it hurts.

#love #pain #movingon #relationships #new

M Feb 2018

Cupid (a dark love spell)

Verse 1
Sneak peak at your future-is it warm and bright?
A flash foward that is only for tonight.
Ring a bell for every single sinner-
prepare the gold for our number one winner-
I see you're starved like a wolf without his dinner-
I'll pull out the guide "Assasins for Beginners"
Do you wanna know-Do you want to know
Is it yes or no-is it yes or no
Pull back every arrow
And shoot it through your bow.

Verse 2
I sip every ounce of the satin night.
Like a veil of memory washing out my sight.
Raise a heart for every single loser-
Burn a witch says ever accusor-
I sleep walk all the nights that I am dreamin-
I've got a little secret: my lover is a demon.
Do you wanna know-do you wanna know
Is it yes or no-is it yes or no
Pull back every arrow and shoot it through your bow.

Verse 3
Raise your glass-to the moonlight.
As if your last-no wrong or right.
Is it worth your story to have it all?
No more bruising glory, no more room to fall...
A dark love spell.

A play on Cupid being evil and actually a monster, a reflection on my own experience.
Edit* has since been written into a song

#love #heartbreak #passion #poetry

M Feb 2018

Confuse me

It wasn't easy
saying goodbye
to what I thought
was a good reason
to hide away from
what was really
nothing but
love.

Back and forth back and forth
Is it really love
It isn't love
It must have been love

#love #loss #pain #gain