I went deep down in the hole,
not physically but mentally,
i just wanted to be alone.
I couldnt find my words,
to show people where i’d go,
deep down in my emotions,
where darkness was all there was to show.
I searched frantically for guidance,
to try and figure out if this is as far as i should go.
I couldnt find the right time to let everybody know
i could no longer reach my goals.
I was tired and exhausted and i had nothing left,
it’s sad i know.
When you have these pent up feelings
that you never learned to let go,
they start eating at your insides
until you say **** this, its time for me to go.
life's better off without me,
no one will ever even know,
all the **** i had to go through,
to pop this bottle and take it straight to the dome,
pills that faded my vision,
tears that flooded my throat.
my eyes started to close,
left with nothing but remorse.
surprised to see light sneeking in through my eye lids,
hours later, i was blessed i didnt go.

They say you meet people when you are meant to meet them,
You go through things so you could fall down, get up and learn,
So you can see not just the real you, but the real them.
They say things happen for a reason,
So you could learn to chose between seeing the light or seeing the darkness with all its treason.
They say everyone means everything to somebody,
So you dont feel alone when you dont need but want to find somebody.
They say happiness lies within you,
I say thank you, for everything you said has kept my head up high and kept me sane, its true.

In times of despair,
I couldn’t get out of my mind,
I couldn’t collect my thoughts,
I couldn’t keep track of time,
I couldn’t spare the memories and the good times.

So much happiness around me
Yet I solely focused on the scoop.
The stories of others being told.
Where they lies,
Or where they truths?
Where we focused on them,
Or where we making up stories
To satisfy our youth?
The youth that failed to show us
That what you say,
says nothing about them,
and everything about you.

Let me look into the windows of your soul,
let me see the reflection of my words that you hold.
Let me see what you feel,
let me listen to your words,
I just want you to show to me, how it is you see the world.
Do you feel the good wind flow between your hair,
or do you simply walk around without a bit of care.
Can you smell the sweet scent of the rain after a storm,
or do you stumble through the streets frivolous and cold.
Can you hear the happiness blaring from the laughter,
or do you sit down and ponder what life will be way after,
after we pass and we have nothing left to give,
or do you see the legacy we where brought here to live.
I just want you to show me, how it is you see the world,
so I can take the seat right next to you,
in this ride we call life,
and you will never be alone.

One glance
Music blaring everywhere,
a gentle tug between our souls,
A little push,
a little closer he got.
One smile underneath the fluorescent lights,
A little brighter shined the night,
A little chuckle
Another glance,
And a little closer he got.
Shuffling through the wave of sound,
Through the crowd,
No longer in sight,
I looked down and sighed,
But when I turned around, to my surprise,
We locked eyes,
He smiled,
And a little closer he got.
Excited to speak, he spilled his drink,
I laughed, we spoke,
And a little closer he got to me.