i have lost something inside
i never even knew i had

no words are coming out
for i've suppressed it for too long
and now,
they have lost their way
and they have no way out

I got lost
lost in your sweet words
my mind and heart cannot take

I fell
fell in love with your heart and soul
too deeply that i cannot move on

I hoped
hoped that you'll see
that i'll be right here

I longed
longed for you to love me back
and say that you'll be here

But i failed
failed to make you stay
and make you mine

letting go
moving on
looking forward
these are decisions
i am willing to take

though,
i do not have the heart
a heart strong enough
to break yours
to contain the pain
or just the heart
*to let you go

i admire you
for your kind heart
for your enthusiastic soul
and everything else in between

mind blocked
heart thumping
fingers fidgeting
legs shaking

here we are
waiting for an update
anything
even just a note

hoping for good news
we rebuke any bad scenario  
and just hope for the best

and in a blink of an eye
we hear the news
we are torn and grateful
two feelings at once

we don't know what to feel
and we start reminiscing

our hearts torn that you are gone
but grateful that you are no longer suffering
we were hoping to be with you
but we know you're better Up There

you are finally Home
and we know you're happy
probably jumping in joy
and watching over us

you will be missed
but never forgotten
you'll be in our hearts forever,
dear Mr. Smit.

Unguarded
are our hearts,
they're lost in the wild

we try to find a hunter
who will try and salvage
what is left
of our souls and hearts