I'm drunk
I'm very drunk
Not on beer or *****
Or wine or margaritas
But I'm drunk
But on what Nero?
What'd you get sloshed on?
I'll tell you
I'm drunk of a mixture of bitterness and lost hope
2/5ths of romanticism and no one to share that with
A shot of insecurity, and a tall glass of stress

I need to get sober
I'm tired of living through a constant hangover
So tomorrow I stop drinking my emotions
I'm throwing that bottle into the ocean

words
never easy
to say
always easy
to write

until now

words
never limited
to feelings
always spreading
to thoughts

until now

words
never ending
flowing seemlessly
always leading
to mindlessness

until now

now words
now they never
now to you
now they always
now I can't

now

words
never seeming
to fit together
always missing
what I want to say

now

-beckb 041816

i said
i wouldnt
but now
im afraid
its not
the aftermath
of the storm
its the fear
of straightening
the mindless mess
and finding
the last page

-beckb 042416

are not we all clouds
particles
pieces
droplets
atoms
together
but when we feel heavy
we
fall

-beckb 050116

A flower bending
in the wind doesn't actually
yield, though it seems so

She who's in my sight,
         always turns left and right
                     hoping I fight,
                   make a smile or
                            TWO
              just to impress both of
                            YOU