What if,
We we're friends

What if,
I didn't pretend

What if,
I was your lover

What if,
Every night we tell how much we loved each other

What if,
All of this happened

Take my light,
I don't want it without you.
Leave me without hope,
carry it into the blue.
Tie down your future
with the penny I'll throw.
Teach me how to play dead,
and I will let you go.

Put me in your shoes,
and tell me something is missing.
Tell me, from now on,
my life is simply existing.
Take my smile and my eyes
and I will take on yours.
I will resent you for your joy,
but never tell, of course.

I'll let you leave,
I'll stop obsessing,
If you do this for me.
All I ask is that you strip me of my optimism,
and leave me simply to be.

And you'll walk away with purpose.
Walk with hope of something.
Live in the light of promise.
And I will aspire to nothing.

For some reason you wanted to be alone,
For some reason you wanted to walk a little further,
For some reason you alight the train one stop earlier than your destination,
For some reason you pass a road you never seen,
For some reason your sweating a lot,
For some reason you are lost in deep thoughts,
For some reason you crave for someone's presence,
For some reason you keep asking  yourself "why" ,
But you can't figure it out.

One blink, one thought, one bullet

One blink and a lost love,
Scattered yet beautiful like a flock of doves,
Needed one thing from life, a companion yet hidden within despair and strife
No camouflaged motives
Hidden within my brain
A feeling of depression
my soul is blood stained

One thought and an overcoming force
I feel something but it's not remorse
I have to find love, I need it quick
If impossible,to the floor my blood shall stick
Suicidal thoughts
Yet craves for living
Left alone and hidden
Undecided and unforgiving

One bullet to end all things
Hopefully given a pair of wings
Tears rolling down each persons face
Given final words of grace
I feel a pounding in my chest
For It was fake
Tears coming down my chin
and I'm finally awake