So many lyrics running through my head, but why do I even try when I know nobody cares?

I mean, I kinda know why I haven't given up yet.
It's because the hope that's in my heart still holds my hand.

At this point I'm surprised I still even have hope.
My brain has failed but the beating in my chest says enough.

I'M stuck between "i really want to talk to you" vs "I really need to get over you."

The world ***** but I'll stay by your side as I promised when you said you want to be forever mine.
Just know that I'm really trying not to give up,
The love you give me - I hope it's enough for me to wake up
because you're the only reason I still even try, and I'm sorry I'm so hard to be kept alive

And as the wind blows through my hair I hear your voice calling my name.
I walk down the road we used to go together and I listen to the playlist you made me to feel better.
Every song I hear reminds me of you. Every word that goes into my ear makes my heart break in two.

It hurts to have both of my headphones singing me songs that we used to listen to, so I take one out and imagine you're sitting next to me and taking it, while I get closer to you.

The wind blows gently on my nose.
I don't want to hear your voice.

My problem is that I stick to things that make me smile
Just for a while
Just for a minute
One breath of fresh air
One decent memory and I'm already lost inside those things
or poeple
Mostly people if i come to think of it

I cling to people who I think I need
But turns out I really don't need them as much as I think
But I tell mysef that they help me to grow and spread my wings and teach me to just go with the flow
They take me high
But then there's the fall

Honey
They don't help you grow
They make you feel high
They make you smile


But drugs aren't good for you my darling
You'll get addicted
And those ******* falls...
They already make you feel so low

Why do you crave a second of happiness even though you know that later you'll regret it all?