I might have tried, but guess. I'm done.
I keep trying, I keep coming in, but you build a wall on us.

I'm stucked.

Between, rather to wreck your wall or step back. To the place where I belong,

Because I know. I do realize, I'm not your home. I can't be one. And I'm not, and can't be yours either.


Sorry.

there were some growing aches, but you came and heal it.
there were some growing pains, but you replace them with your purity.
there were some illnesses, but you treat them well.
there was an aching soul, but you hold it tight.

there was my darkest time, but something lead me to a light. I never knew, you are that light.
there was me struggling, can't find my way back home. a whisper told me, you are my home.
there was me looking for something lost, then I found you back.
there was playing my puzzle, can't complete it well. but then you came, my missing puzzle piece.

there was me drowning in my world. but you held me up, save me in your arms, telling everything's fine, as long as I'm with you.

hello, I miss you very much.
but later on, you ignored me.
you left me on read.
I know you're so busy but hey?
oh. nevermind, I'm sorry if my existence and my texts disturb you.

I know, life is being hard. to me, not to you. and I need you to cheer me up but?? I want nothing. I just want you, your attention, like usual. but you came up with this. your ignorance. and that's hurts.

I never ask for money, free treats, jewels, or anything else. I just want you. I know, I'm not-so-called-a-pretty-and-hottie-girl. I'm showing you my real side. like, my love for you. lol. so cheesy.

If you're wondering out up to the sky, remember. Don't ever forget, that I'll always by your side. behind ya. I got your back. When the world's trying to bring you down, I'm here. I'll always be here for you, cheering you up, helping you with these burdens called "tugas-dari-guru-guru-terlebih-yang-killer" ehe. I'll stand by your side, I'd never leave you, trust me. Some of people may think "janji ada untuk dilanggar" but not for me.

I...I'm sorry for everything. Sorry for those times when you were burned up because of me. I'm sorry for disturbing you, just. sorry, sorry, and sorry.  sorry for my weakness.

Tolong, maafin kekuranganku, keburukanku, dan lain-lainnya, ya. Aku lagi berusaha untuk menjadi lebih dewasa, tentunya.

I don't know if you read this or not,  I'm just sharing my thoughts 'anonymously' here. I can't say nothing beside "I miss you" and type this ( a not so called ) long *** paragraph.

Have a blast friday, baby. My precious human.

Times by times, days by days,
Months have passed.
All the ups and downs that we’ve been through,
Is now painted in the sky, by the wind who’ve seen it all.

All the memories that we’ve made,
Is now hung up in the sky, by the wind who’ve seen it all.

All the secrets and promises that we’ve shared together,
Is now held in our hearts, by the wind who’ve heard it all.

And now, we're ready to face the new journey.

She's a mess.
Her mind also.
Everything just ****** up.

As the rain kept falling down,
The atmosphere became lower,
And lower.
The lovebirds went back to their
nest,
to warm their bodies up.

When the rainfalls hit the
window,
I realized,
There's one thing happened,
That I make my own rain,
On my eyes.

"******* people easily?"

"It's simple."
"All you need to do is hit them with insecurity, and alsoㅡa bit of anxiety."

'cause there's no one,
that could love you,
the. way. I. do.
Note this.

It's only me.
I promise.

And be sure to face me first,
before you take him from my arms.

If you want to get the job,
you better know who's the boss.