so guys,dudes,dudets,peeps I've been through a lot in my life and i wanted to give some help/advice to people who are finding themselves either cutting or wanting to cut because honestly its sad to to see, i mean I've been there many times in my life and all i remember feeling was depressed but more than that i had lost faith. once you cut you realize that you want to find some kind of logic to cutting whether its loneliness or abuse but the whole time i was running away from my feelings. in life we all go through bad things that will make us sad, things that will mark and scar us emotionally but why add to that physically? i understand its create something or replace the mental pain but you know as a person i only look to see the best in people.happy or smiling, like when i eat cookies. seriously though people don't want to see those bad things that are happening to you because those things belong to you as a person, things that make you who you are. i remember the best thing for cutting is just having someone to talk to whether family or friends just having someone there as positive reinforcement. now I've met a lot of people who have said they cant stop and find it addictive but just think to yourself 'how long have i gone without cutting?' because whether its an hour,a day , a week it shows me you are strong enough to stop. i mean obviously not all at once but gradually day by day you'll stop. i'm not saying it will erase sadness completely i mean emotional scars will stay with us but to stop cutting allows happiness and positivity to come easier to you. if the pains in one place its easier to forget. just always remember the most important person in your life is you and its illogical to hurt yourself. i used to blame myself because i felt that i wasn't wanted by my own family or people but i realized "who cares? i'm me. like me or hate me. so i've hoped this helps if not oh well sorry, aha. if anyone needs support just message me, oh and tell me in the comments below if this helps and how long you've gone clean , and yeah peace

self harm takes many forms
from wrist lined in white
to burns on thighs

but i learned
it's much more than that
it's holding everything in
it's those negative thoughts i think
it's when I bite my inner lip
to remind myself that
any day,
i could decide i don't want to live

self harm is
so much more
than those white lines
or burn marks.

-r.y.s

Beneath the canopy of stars
I sit and wonder
Dear God
Would you give me a sign
Would you tell me the future
Of distance and time
How will my destiny take a turn
I am scared of the unknown
Can you hear my heartbeat thudding away
It knows not what it wants
And I am afraid of taking a wrong turn
All that I am sure
Is that I am yours
Write me as you wish
For your wish is mine
You know what I dare not bring to voice
Only you could find clarity in the confusion of my self
And the contradiction it presents
I live in your trust alone
And even if I am lost
Nothing is of loss if I have you

Tossing and turning as I lie on my bed
But all these voices are screaming in my head
Stop! Please stop! I want to sleep.
Slowly, subtly, all these thoughts linger and creep.

Voices of the past saying,
'You can't make it.'
Voices of failure saying,
'Not outstanding. Go back and sit.'

Lies of the enemy are clouding my brain
Without God, by now, I'd be insane.
I'm remembering my mistakes and all
Unpleasant memories, they make me feel small.

My mind is a battlefield
But my victory has been sealed
I know I'll get through this
Because He is faithful. I am His.