I Absolutely ADORE you
Constantly thinking about you
because you are the first living thing i've loved besides my dogs in years
You're so much bigger
by Two years
But you're not scary
You Stupid teddy bear
You put up these tough guy walls
but
i knew it
I knew you would be a stupid teddy bear

I want to hug you
and go to sleep
next to you
and wake up the morning having accidentally pushed you off the bed
and apologize for it
like 60 times
and end up making something to eat
because food is one of the other things i love in life
I miss you

You stupid Teddy Bear

Remember how I told you not to do things
because you drank a lot those nights
and i wanted you to be safe

Remember that it took about a month and a half for you to be my favorite
because everyone else was leaving
i was stressed out and lashing out
but you stayed

Thank you

Remember how i tried so hard to calm you down, even if i failed every time?
It didn't matter
I didn't want you upset
that hurt me

Remember how often i told you things i wouldn't have remembered?
you reminded me of my memories
even the ones i had mostly forgotten
times used to be good

Remember how you used to get frustrated with me
because i could never tell what time it was
I have no sense of time *
You got used to it and stopped getting upset at me
and instead alerted me of what time it was whenever we talked

Thank you
I love you

She haunts my every thought, my mind and my soul. I wish I could tell her so she would also know.

In life,
It is essential
That you learn
How to be strong enough
To let go;
And wise enough
To wait
For what you deserve.