all these nights writing rhymes
thinking through all the same ****

wasting all my ******* time
hoping luck might come my was a bit

asking myself whats the point to it all
trying to help but wasting my breath

going through stupid medication withdrawal
thinking of ways to bring my own death

everything thing seems to be gray now
I can't even write **** trying to make this poetic.... **** everything

pure soul with shining eyes
your absence leaves me wondering why

what could I have done to save you and I
the thought of our love brings me to cry

spending all theses nights watching the sky
getting caught up in our own lies

I want to give it another try
but all i'll get is another goodbye

you shouldn't have left my heartstrings tied
because without your kiss i'll surely die

I know you probably heard it a thousand ******* times
But this life it will get better so keep your dreams alive
One day this rain will let up
So keep the dream alive
The weather always changes
In life's skies throughout our lives
Some days things just don't work
We get trapped in our minds
Waiting for miracles to show up
We think we waste our time
Spending nights I'm segregation
With broken minds and broken hearts
Don't let it **** your motivation
You're a gift you were from the start
Maybe there will be days where the magic kinda fades
This world it's sorta tragic but we'll make it through the pain
It can't always be like this
We won't spend every single day
Bound to a depression
From what the others say
Someday we'll make it out of here
We'll be stronger from it all
The skies will part and clear
Cause our greatness isn't small

sick of using people like objects
feels so wrong to tell someone I love them
when I don't give a **** about them

i'm such a terrible person right now
but I don't even generally care
it's how i've been treated by others anyways

just kicking myself over and over
cause I ****** up
i'm only sinking deeper

broke my heart
broke my bones
crushed them deep
hurt my soul

burnt up notes
lost my hope
where i'm going
I don't know

I had faith I could
Find love in you
But I ****** it up
that i'm used to

wish I could change it
but the words they don't manage
we hurt and my heart split
with this cycle it stays

when i'm thinking of you
these thoughts come to
my heart is in pain
for me there's no gain

to hurt is all i'll do
the blood it soaks through
I cannot hide my pain
on all days in rains

so i'll give up on love
it's all a big hoax
it felt like heaven above
dreams of holding you close

I wish for you
it's all I seem to ever do
Because try as I may you'll think i'll never be true
Though my heart truly only craves you
So I wish I may I wish I might
Wish on a star for you every night
I'll wish my dreams weren't blown away
By my vision that leads me astray
I'll wish my mind wasn't so frayed
Even though this world is unclear to me
Your beauty is what I truly see
You're not as dim as everyone else
because you've clearly got me under your spell
I may not see the colours to bright up my world
But you're vivid enough to light it up anyways
So I lay here watching the days go by
With my mind in dismay watching the sky
So I lay here and here i'll stay
Waiting till I can find the right words to say
Wishing each night on a different star
hoping my wish can get that far
to reach the cosmos and the stars
hoping maybe something from above
will bring back the feelings of love

I find it strange despite the time
all these nights I still think of you

still wishing you were mine
but just with one thing different maybe two

I picture how well my body fit with yours
as you're probably finding how well it fits with all the others

I wasted time pondering behind closed doors
whilst my mind and soul were smothered

I don't really need to be  bothered
the alcohol numbs me enough to settle the score