I cry often and hard at the moment,
From the soul
Anxiety is rampant and how I wish it wouldn’t control me
I’m too heavy for the people I want to bring joy
But he listens and he cares and he knows the outlines of the darkness inside of me
He kissed my hands and my head
When I called him beautiful
He almost cried

follow the light back
patterns traced on my shoulder
there’s warmth and light and goodness
enough that the darkness doesn’t have to consume you

all change
please all change

God is love
And I am in God