The worst is over
But why do i still feel like this ?
I counted the days for you to vow infront of god to love her for forever
Now that the day has come
My world is cold and bitter

How do i say good bye ? When am yet not ready to let you go .
How do i say good bye ? When my heart hasnt realized that your about to be gone .
How do i say good bye ? When i still have so much to say to you .
My hello to you hasnt even finished and the good bye is already knocking on the door .
Why must live be like this ?

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And at one point when i said ' I Love you' you thought i was acting
Little did you know you were my obsession and passion
So if i was acting it would be a never ending movie with a permanent casting

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Do you hear that sound ?
         neither do i ?
what does that mean
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I dont like saying things out loud
No, not because i am too proud
You should have heard the screams of my soul just like you vowed .
Saying things out loud makes them so real , do you understand how i feel ?
But you still keep asking me whats the deal .
My words are stuck in my throat
Just come and here and look at what i wrote .
Saying things out loud makes them real , it gives it mass and solidity and that is the scariest thought to me from them all

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Why cant you just understand?
Why do i have to say it out loud ?
Why must u hear the words with you ears ?
Listen to the screams and tears of my soul .
Listen to my silence . Hear it . I beg you . Hear it
Please just hear it

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The colours of my soul i am yet to find
This is the journal i have signed
       Up for
I need to know
So i will be able to grow
The colours of my soul i am yet to find
Is it dark, as a stormy night
Is it bright, as the day light
The colours of my soul i am yet to find
Is it in ma heart or in my brains
So i wonder when i stare out the window when it rains
The colours of my soul i am yet to find
Maybe all this time i was blind
Tells me my mind
Maybe my soul has no colours
Maybe i have no soul

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