My world is falling apart
This is all to hard
I can barely breath
Please god bring me some ease
I want this whole world to freeze
So i can put my world back together
And life becomes light as a white feather
I can only wish for that
But until then the colours of ma soul will stay matt

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Silence is all i wanted
Or so i thought
But now that i finally have silence
All i want is to hear your voice
Silence
...

I try everyday to forget him
But he keeps creeping back into my head
I try everyday to hate him
But his warmth fills my heart
I try everday to let go of him
But he is tattooed into my soul
I try
And i try
but its not working
I try and i try but his memories aren't going away .
He leaves me here , in the dark, heart broken .

He consumes me
How did this happen ?
He consumes me
When did this happen ?
He consumes me
My All day and all night
He consumes me
How do i make this stop
He consumes me
I  am no longer me

There i was again ,
At the bottom , i was looking for a light. Anyone? Is anyone here that could help me ? Its dark and lonely here . I can baerly breath . But there was this voice in ma head . She has been there for a long time . I dont know if i can trust her . She keeps whispering to me : "This is rock bottom , noone but you can save you now".