******* myself?
If I'm already dead inside.
Why I am afraid of disappointing them?
If I'm already useless person

How to be alive?
if you already wanna return thre life you borrowed from God.
How to make them proud?
If I'm already drowning down myself.

If I go where they don't want me to be
To the place I should never be
If I do things they don't want me to do
Things I might regret too
But what if that place and things will make me
Will make me so happy
Should I try to disappoint them
Or should I let it be
Let things where it should be
I AM ALREADY TIRED
Even if I didn't even tried
Stucked with WHAT IFS
Don't know what to do with all of this
I wanna get slash on my wrist
Or hang myself or jump in skyscrapers
But they will get disappointed yes
But I wanna stop all this
And be on peace.

Just because I bear the pain,

it doesn’t mean it’s bearable.

©

I am now drowning
Drowning from overthinking
I think I'm dying

I'm just a fool to stay
To stay with one like you
Like you who broke my heart
My heart which beats for you