Under the minstrelsy of the sprinkled stars
Under the blanket of rain suspended in time
I wish this moment was my eternity and you, my love,
You be my Valentine

Something is very wrong,
Have i been like this all along?
Now that all the drama and pain has gone away...
I still feel all the pain.

Something is very wrong,
I feel that i've sensed it all along.
First i was cutting,
then i stopped eating.
Now i overeat.
When will these disgusting cycles end.

Something is very wrong,
My mother doesn't love me,
My father expects something i cannot deliver.
My sister looks up to me.

Something is very wrong,
I have felt this way all along...
When was my smile real?

~I stare into the white walls of space,
Eyes looking at me sorrowfully,
I wish I could just say,
“It's okay- this happens everyday!”
But then they would be even more sorry.~

waking up in the hospital
with an IV in one arm,
and the reappearance of
a sad long island
iced tea
dripping down the other,
with an eight hundred dollar
bill to pay
from a hundred dollar a week
pay check–
and you realize
you are not
where you thought
you'd be.

Ended up in hospital today
People came not long to stay
Sniffed the flowers
And drifted away
Woke up to more
Eat some grapes and started to snor
How do these people get here
Bet I will sleep tonight
Just want to go home now
Leave me people
I am alright