Her petals were always the first to be noticed,
their sweet smell and softness distracted strangers' eyes.
She managed to blossom for a while,
entertaining their idea of her perfection,
but after a while,  
her thorns would ***** the flesh of those who dared to come closer.

All have ran at the sight of blood.

Will anybody ever stay?

The only good things in life are those that have been untouched by man.
The worst part about humans:
They're unaware.

How much power their hands have.
How much damage they can do.

Be careful of who you touch,
you can’t just leave afterwards.

Although..
most people think you can.

I’m back in a hole.

I can’t feel myself,
my thoughts are lost.

The fluorescents of the city shine so bright because they **** the inner light from each soul wandering through it's streets.

I pause to breathe at the points in between.
That is all I have time for.
I catch my breath, just to lose it again.

I want to stop for a moment.
For longer than a moment.

Maybe that is where we go wrong.
We constantly are trying to escape the present.

I look around as my eyes end up clouded in a fog,
subconsciously I take my mind anywhere but here.

I suddenly feel insignificant,
and all of the distractions I thought were real unmask themselves,
one by one,
my world crumbles apart.

Don’t be fooled.

None of this really matters,
and if you believe that something does,
I feel sorry for you.

I'm not really sure if I meant anything to you.
I'm not really sure you cared.

A piece of me wanted you to tell me to wait,
to tell me that I was right in waiting.

You probably think I'm just like everyone else.
You probably have no clue how many times a day I thought about you.

You don't even realize how much you mean to someone.
And for that, I kind of resent you.

I’m not sure if you are meant to be mine,
but something inside of me is willing to wait.

I’ve never felt this before,
this calmness.

I know if I push,
you will not be ready,
you will not be healed.

I want all of you, forever,
not some of you now.

So I will wait until the sun shines in your bedroom again,
until the air re-enters your lungs once you’re finally breathing.
I will be waiting for you when you are reborn,
and you can be in comfort knowing:
you will never have to go through that alone again.

Not until I met you did I realize
how hard I was trying with everyone else.

Did
I
do
the
right
thing?

Sitting here
Biting my lip
Eyes glazed over
Half awake
I miss you

I wish I could show you what you look like to the outside world
I wish I could let you know how someone feels about you
How each word you write fills my insides with warmth
How you inspire me to use words that I would never touch before
Like love sick and awe
How before you I was jaded, and might still be
But you showed me a glimpse of light
A morsel of hope that there are real people still out there
Who see the world like I do
Who long for a companion, not only to lay beside, but to share their lives with
Even though I am without you, you have forever touched me
By not even touching me.
That is something that never happens
You are something that never happens
You are my once in a lifetime.

I hope you come back,
but I will carry you with me forever.

Some nights you just have to spend alone with your thoughts.
Breathing them in and out.
Feeling them all come, and feeling them all go.
Sometimes it’s the easiest thing to do, and sometimes it’s the hardest.

Tonight it’s hard.
Tonight I can’t get you out of my mind.
Tonight I want to scream and hold my breath so long that your feeling will never leave me.
I know once I exhale, you will leave my body,
and slowly, I will forget what you felt like.

As each breath gets more pure, you will be washed away in the little air particles that float around my room.
You will make your way out of the door, and into the streets where you will fill the night sky with your wonder.
I will fall asleep in sadness just hoping,
that maybe when I wake up tomorrow,
I will step outside and the wind will have brought you back to me.

Maybe you will find a nice corner to wait,
and then one day, without me noticing,
You will re-enter my soul and I will feel life again.

I can only hope that as the time passes in between,
I grow numb to feeling the pain that this emptiness has caused.
So that I can feel like you never left me at all.
So that when I do breathe you in again, we can forget about the hurt and the pain that led me to walk away.
So that we can be in eternal bliss.
So that I never have to hold my breath again to try and keep you.
So that we can breathe the same air.
So that you can hold me and whisper sweet nothings into my ear.
I will be basking in your breath, in a sea of you.

I don’t even know how to swim,
but I’m not afraid of drowning.

There are feelings I have left in the corners of my mind.
If I let them make their way into my heart,
I’m not sure I could handle them in the way they should be handled.
Sometimes, I can hear their silent screams wanting to be let out,
but I distract myself with sweet nothings to pass the time until they quiet down.

I distract myself with feelings my heart can handle,
with feelings you can handle.
For if I showed you my mind,
I’m not sure you’d see me the same.

I’m not sure my mechanism is right,
but anything that keeps you in my life longer than yesterday,
is my only end goal.

So the thoughts will stay silenced,
and the love I feel will be tamed.
Until one day you’ll be able to handle them.
Until one day we combine our strength.
Until you can latch onto my palms and intertwine our fingers.
Until you stare into my eyes so deep I won’t even have to speak for you to see my soul.
Until you can touch my chest and feel the beating of my heart,
the pounding of my heart when I look at you.

You will be my peace.
The balance between these corners and my heart.

Although I feel that this time may never come,
at least for now I can control myself to keep you in my life.
And at least for now,
that’s enough.