i will never forget the day your crescent moon eyes and long blonde hair took over my heart and put it in a permanent state of bloom. your beauty and love is the only thing that keeps me alive and well and if i never had it or felt it i wouldnt even be here. your love is like petting a cat while it purrs. your love is like being carried by a crowd of doves through the stars. your love is something that not everyone feels. my love for you is permanent and will never disappear. my love for you is more than all the stars and galaxies combined. my love for you is infinite. and infinity isnt anything until you believe in love and look for it among the stars.

you are a work of art

you are my mona lisa

you are my david

you are my the scream

you are my the starry night

but you are most of all my masterpiece

I'm always afraid everyone will start hating me, when everyone already hates me.

i’m basically on the verge of an anxiety attack

i try to pray to a god that may or may not exist

i dread the future

i dread the day i hear the words “i think we should break up”

i’ve experienced those 6 words plenty of times

sometimes i was crushed

sometimes i knew it was the right thing to do

i’m in love with a girl who has flowers for eyes

i fell in love with her beauty

i fell in love with her smile

i fell in love with every tiny bit of her

she’s 939 miles away and i don’t get to touch her skin until next year

but the way she talks to me, treats me, and the way she makes me feel

makes me the happiest person to ever walk this earth.

(J.A.)

why'd you only talk to me when you were high?

i may look like i'm something on the outside,  but deep down inside i'm absolutely nothing

i'm unfortunately not worth it and i never will be.

when i was with you were an _
i wouldnt call it a relationship
because there was no relation
although there was a ship
but you were on the bow with your arms out
and i was an anchor waiting to be dropped

16 and 1/2 with a sadness as deep as the ocean
which you can feel yourself being dragged into slowly by the claws of depression as you attempt to escape but have found yourself in an abyss of emptiness.

As I sit on my bed
Piled by blankets
Watching an endless amount of movies
And listening to the same 6 songs on repeat
I think that you have found somebody new
Well maybe you're better off with whatever his name is supposed to be
I guess I'll never know what it feels like to be loved by you
I always knew I'd find the right person and for the past 2 months I thought that it would be you
As I lay here still piled up by blankets
I want to text you how I feel
But our friendship is something I want to keep
And it's not something you find at an old garage sale that's really cheap
I just hope that one day you hear the words I wanna say
But for now I'll lay here piled under these blankets trying to get through the day

(J.A)

The fact of how beautiful you are just overwhelms me

Your sweetness is the most amazing feeling I can feel at this moment in time

When we talk I completely forget about all of the bad stuff in my life

These are the good memories. The ones we should all keep in our heads on a bad day

The days we don't talk are the bad days I was just talking about

But when you message me I've never felt so happy in my entire life

I'd message you now, but I'm still waiting for a reply

(J.A.)

Even though I'm 939 miles away I always imagine you're by my side every night before I sleep

The only place I'm with you side by side is in my dreams

If that's the only place I'll ever see you then I guess I'll sleep forever

(J.A.)

I still love you mom and dad
But I feel more at home when I'm away from here
I'll never find anything in this dead place
My heart's been buried in the midwest
And I've been digging out for the past three years

never did i think i would meet a girl whose eyes i compare to the stars

whose beauty i would compare to a bed of flowers

and whose love i would compare to no one else's.

It's funny. Almost a year ago I didn't even see myself living to 18. But now I know I will because it'll be spent with you.

(J.A.)

we're all gonna die someday so love and accept everyone and everything.

You’re a very beautiful and amazing human being who is worthy of so many amazing things and in my opinion you deserve more than me because you’re a galaxy and I’m just a speck of dust

the sun sets as we finish our day

the moon rises as we start off our night

today is just really ****** and i wish i wasn't alive to feel it

i love you

you glued my heart

back together

from the microscopic pieces

that it once was

i always sleep on the side of my bed because I imagine you being right next to me.

i was always afraid to die

i was always afraid death would be slow and painful

i was always afraid i would die young

i was afraid everyday thinking it would be my last day

don't be afraid

death is a part of life

don't fear it

love it

(J.A.)

Our love isn't based on us sitting behind other screens sitting 939 miles away

Our love is based on the way our hearts feel no matter the distance

I don't need to touch your skin to know the warmth of your beauty

All I need is a photo of you and my eyes looking at them and my mouth smiling

(J.A.)

looking in your eyes was like looking at a car wreck

I hate knowing you breathe the same air as me.

Your eyes cross my mind like many other things do
If I had a top 10 list of things that cross my mind everything about you would fill it up
When I think of you my smile comes out and it won't go away because you can't frown at the thought of you

Climbing this mountain that I call my life is on my list of things to do before I die

If I fall off the edge, "help" is the only word I'll cry

And the only question I can ask myself is "why?"

Why did I let myself fall off the edge?

I'm sure we've all fallen off the edge at least one point in our lives

But I'm sure we've all had someone to help pull us back to the spot we were in

We're all just leaves blowing along, slowly going wherever the wind takes us

And wherever it takes us is where we're destined to be

(J.A.)

do you think the neighbors are mad? everyone left their trash on their lawn. someone's asleep on the roof. someone's asleep on the grass. the party lasted for 13 hours and not a minute later. bags under everyone's eyes,  alcohol in everyone's system, except for mine.

I've been punching holes in my wall and crying my eyes out for 2 weeks straight

I gave you my heart and you stomped on it and now I don't know what to do

Tears in my eyes and holes in my wall are just the beginning

Where will it lead to next? I guess we'll find out along the path

If I could write a book on how hurt I am, would you even read it?

Billions of people on this earth and I chose you... to keep

Billions of people on this earth and you chose me... to hurt.

(J.A.)

it's been almost one year since death stared me in the face

it looked down on me

swallowed me whole

and almost ate me alive