Forgiving of your sins.
Fills you with his fire of happiness
Warms you up with his fire.
Slammed by the holy spirit
Makes you want more of his fire.
So intense that you will cry of happiness.
Glad to feel God is around you.
His presents is lovely and peaceful.
We are sinners, but he loves everyone.
He forgives you of your sins when you ask for forgiveness.
He is listening to you when you pray.

I have probably with guys.
God knew what I go through when it comes to guys. He said to me " You aren't suppose to earn a guys heart, the guy has to earn your heart* and God is with you and will help you if in the need. *He will guide you in the right direction

I wasn't caring about the train
one day, she came and I felt the same
That feelings I felt before
But this time I wasn't so sure
I looked into her face
I was checking like there is no space
I liked her voice and her smile
She looked at me and got mine
For a second I felt so good
I wasn't sure about what I could
I decided to give it a shot
My heart and chest became so hot
I went to her friend to help me
She yelled at me, I was so dreamy
I told myself, just wait and see
If she is yours, that would be
After six months, Finally she showed up
This was my chance with no backup
I went to her and showed my interest
Actually she smiled and didn't resist
I took her dad's name
I would say I am the guy of the train
Is she the girl I dreamed about?
Would I hold her warm and tight?
The happiness was massive like I never gain
I didn't think that could go down the drain
Next day I saw her with another guy
He wasn't that good, I thought she was shy
This moment was the worst I ever had
I felt like a knife cutting so bad
I didn't recognize where is the bleed
It was so bitter and hurting indeed
The pain was everywhere
If someone shot me, I wouldn't care
I was standing barely
This was happening too early
I didn't know how to pass that day
I wanted to pass it come what may
I prayed for Allah pouring my heart
Please Help me, My heart is tearing apart
Should I wait and give her a chance
But the hurt was fast as a glance
Why did she give me hope
She threw me from a high *****
She caused me pain I cannot cope
Every time I see her I feel things
Like I am having no more springs
At the same time hot and cold
My heart shivers and I barely hold
I wish I didn't see her at all
I wish I didn't fall
I will wait my beloved one
I am just waiting the destiny call

I found a note in my phone titled “Poetic Epiphany.”  

It was blank.

Whip. Crack. Smack.
White. Back to black.
Baritone moan.
Through flesh and bone.

You discard your bra before you undo him
You spit out your name with your ****** fluids and clumsily pull your feelings back on after
You go home to your messy apartment and climb into bed with your conviction that this is what you want

This is your love letter
You fold it to divide it equally between whomever you deem a recipient
Love doesn’t divide, it multiplies
But also

You can
only fold
a piece
of paper
in half
seven
times

Sometimes I just want him to love me to the extent I can love him

But no one’s paper remains as uncreased as mine