fingers down my back
*** too fat
you like my thighs
and my lips
and my little quirks
i can be as silly as i want
and i love it
you're like him
without the abuse
am i allowed to say that?

sometimes......................
I take one too
many
pills

because I don't want to think.

I don't need to feel.

Dearest, please, take these little pieces of me
Bury them in stone and soil so I might finally be
Strong enough for you, strong enough for me
Taking the weight the come with love and all things it may bring

Dearest, please, take these little pieces of me
Mix them well so I might blend within the sea
So I can submerge in a love that roars eternally
And so that a love that always was will forever be

Dearest, please, take these little pieces of me
Throw them to wonder that is the wind, so free
And I will never tarry when I hear you calling
And I will be the chariot that carries you to your dreams

Dearest, please, take these little pieces of me
Instead of in the ashes,  where our home once was standing
For my love will scream louder than the horrors that still ring
Redder than the ****** ax you use to make little pieces if me