Today I felt a hand on my lower back, I exhaled and wished it was yours.

When I saw it wasn't I felt a wave of disappointment and I remembered you dont want me at all

And it hurts to know that because I want you so badly it physically hurts

I want your touch to be warm and inviting not cold and rigid

I want you to be as happy to see me as I am to see you

I just want you to want me

Is that to much to ask

Don't worry about me I'm just deeply unhappy and am completely alone. No big deal go on and be happy you deserve it.

If I Could Only See You

If I could only see you
Just one more time again
I would tell you how I feel
Let you see within

Show you all the things you missed
Since you've been away
Give you all the love I have
Ask you to please stay

I wish that you could hear me
And know these words are true
This love I have fills my heart
And will always be for you

They say that time will heal the pain
And this hurt will slowly fade
That deep inside I'll hear your voice
And you'll help me through each day

If I could only see you
Just one more time again
I'd thank you for the time we had
My true love and my best friend

If I could Only see you

*Carl Joseph Roberts

i'm not trapped in this body
of mine
what i'm trapped in
is society's idea
of the way
my body should be