if my mind
  was
    instead my physical
      appearance
        perhaps
           they would find me more attractive.

Sad salty water trickles down your face,
it plops down on the ground, and your head droops down.
Your heart is slowing down, you feel blue.
You feel as if you were in a world of sadness,
alone in the world.
It would have trees without leaves,
and the ground as cold as Antarctica.
Breathing slowly, soundlessly,
as the wind goes whistling by.

you never really hated the memories,
only who you shared them with

My worth is not measured by my standardized test score number. My worth is not measured by the amount of AP classes I am taking. My worth is not measured by my GPA. My intelligence cannot be measured by how many pages of a review book I can do and get a 36 on the ACT, a 5 on the AP exam, an A in the class.

I am so much more than these numbers. I am so much more than a transcript.

If rain is your love,
Let it pour down on me
So I can dance in your presence,
Let go and be free

If rolling thunder is the language
Of overflowing joy,
I'll listen for hours,
You're so sweet, my rain boy

If swirling, dark clouds
Are my shelter from harm,
I've made it home to my love,
Safely into your arms

And the next day,
When the sun appears,
Your coursing rain,
Will be my flowing tears

The amount I miss you
I cannot explain
The day you left
Caused so much pain

All that once was
Flooded down the drain
When you took your last breath,
Out the window was rain

If rain is your love,
Let it pour down on me
So I can dance in your presence,
Let go and be free

one day ill open my soul to you the way tulips blossom in the warmth of spring.
one day my walls will deteriorate like paper left in rain water
and when "one day" comes I'll love you the way you love me

girls that stay awake until 2 am
leave mascara scars on sheets
and write their poems in pen
i know this because i am them
and they are me
and in the end, we are we
pardon me if i don't
make much of any sense
(it's 2 am)