It has been said
that when a gypsy witch sings,
the moon's silver tongue
speaks illusion in haiku,
and its beams tickle
feathers in your dream catcher.

I am no witch,
but in the darkest moments of night
where shadows dance uninhibited
with Milky Way stars,
I find serenity in your songs,
and I blow sonnets
of silver sensuality
over the contours of your beauty,
to tickle your dreams.

Aztec Warrior 7/28/15

I can't believe you just said that to me
( please, you are the only one I expect kindness from, do not say such things, I'll forgive you if you never do that again)

Go away, leave me alone.
( please, hug me tightly, tell me you're sorry and don't let me go until my muscles relax after I feel convinced, please be convincing)

I really don't care what you do right now
( please, do what i hope for. I care so much, deeply and you affect my actions and feelings greatly, take my hand and make things right)

I can't take this anymore, I can't stand you.
( please, change just that one behaviour and I will accept all the rest of you genuinely. for the others qualities are so good, you're a great guy)

Let go of my hand, you're hurting me
( please, my emotions are soft, I'm fragile and gentle, I feel no physical pain at this moment. I am not a weak snail. I'm a lioness but I am hurt by what you did, don't let my hand free, hold the other and look at me as you explain to me, to correct the issue. I'm eagerly waiting on you)

You always do this to me
( please, lets figure this out, you've done this once before, but we never dealt with the underlying issue, we were too eager to kiss and make up, wanting things to be perfect again, let's just talk this through, find the root and pluck this **** before it grows)

I never want to see you again!
( please,don't leave, why would I ever want you to leave? If you leave, even for five minutes I will  suffocate, let me breathe, stay with me, I love you. please don't leave me!)

you never listen to me!
( please, don't listen to what I'm saying right now. I'm just so angry, saying things I don't mean to seem tough and far from the fact that I need you in my life, you are my everything, ignore my harsh words.)

I will never forgive you.
( please, know that i have already forgiven you, it wasn't that big of a problem, I'm over reacting out of fear that this may happen again, it IS the second time. though we never actually dealt with it, so we are not to blame, we simple must try to solve this not avoid it. we can do it)

I'm sorry ...I love you. I'm so glad we are good again. I missed you so much**
( I'm not sorry. this was excellent training for the both of us. we needed it. Now we are more secure. we have a mutual understanding. a loving connection and treat each other better. I love you more now. I miss you incredibly. You are my one and only forever and always.

2017

I need some happy poetry
I'm tired of sadness
I'm tired of not seeing the sun
And the bright side of things

I need some happy songs
I've been lost for too long
I need to find myself now
No time to get stuck in the past

I'm more than what
Never let me smile
I'm tired of this charade
I'm tired of being cold

I want to get lost gazing
At the possibilities in the stars
Not at their fateful destruction
Not at their fall to nothing

I needed some happiness
For some time now
Because I broke the chain
That dragged me down

Don't open it... Please don't open it.
...what?
...nothing...
No. It's not nothing, I need to tell you everything. I can't tell you if you let him in, I can't tell you when you give yourself away. I can't tell you when you pull away from me... Never mind, I don't need this. I don't need this feeling. I've been hurt, and I didn't even get a chance to say I love you... Well I can't love you now, since you've gone and opened the door. You've still left your air behind you.

I'm a fancake of pancakes...

I have fallen to two in the realm of neutral. Now I realize the extremes are there to be delved into with heart and soul. No being should neutralize their feelings, thoughts, wants. No being should push away the passionate, intense, and frantic fluctuations from the emotions of the north and south poles.

I am not an old soul.
I know this. I know this by the way I look at the stars... I look at the stars as though they are the unmapped territory of my lives that will unfold. I see the stars as wonder, as loud, living and breathing souls that pull my body forward, up.
I am not an old soul.
I know this by the way I fall for people. I know this by the way I pull away from the fall... I kick my feet out in front of me, pull myself up, and look at the stars as if they will pull me forward and up, out of love.  but they keep pushing me up and forward back to you.
I am a new soul,
and I have learned on only my first way around, that you are the most intricate constellation I've had the chance to see in my time. I've also learned... that the stars came together to make you, as their map of my many futures untold.
I am a new soul.