Tattered edge.

Hacked leylandii flicker
needle-teeth and sequins.

When foxes cry
I dream - my rag doll baby.

When foxes cry, I hold her tight -
pinch together seams.

Try to feed her. Bleed instead. Flood
her small, sharp mouth with red -

then watch the blood soak in.

When foxes cry, she screams.

When foxes cry
I dream - my rag doll baby.

We were in over our heads
A sea of addiction crashing down
We had a chance to wash ashore
I chose to swim with you and drown

Bass bumping through car speakers
Late nights fading to day
We did everything our hearts desired
Until reality got in the way

Beside you our struggles didn't matter
Presence shielded eyes from the dark
Somehow evaded every suspicion
Inserted a period to replace question mark

Then some insecure whispers
Began filling my bones with doubt
Their criticisms were too large
For brain to block it out

How could what felt so right bring me down?
After being high for so long?
To this day I could never long for another's
Blue stare cause with you I belong

You said we would get married someday
Have the family we always dreamed
I should have known your teeth were shut when you spoke
Words were lies though then honest they all seemed

There's always a price to pay,
To freely go or to freely stay,
To be as it should or to be as it may.

~
Silver water
flowing out from under
moon-less-ness

Beautiful daughter of the stars
dancing in eclipse, remembering
the season of the sun

And how her
calculating love survived
its long hibernation
~

I will never...

I promise I will
never give it up,
And, no surrender
until my success is
attacked by my hand

I promise you

we’re just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl
year after year
running over the same old ground
and how we found
the same old fears

the space around me is naked and expectant
it has been yours for a long time now
your crime is negligence
I am calling social services

Sleep
18 April 2021

You are asleep.
Your dreams are sweet and true.
Life has blessed you.