They left
No explanation
Just gone

He came
No invitation
Just showed up

Good, I felt
For just a bit
until the clouds rolled in
and he turned out to be ****

Force, he used
with the pressure of his words
I had too.

"No!" I said
But that didn't stop him.

Used, I felt.
For his own pleasure rather than ours.
Done, he was
a broken machine that can't be fixed
Gone, he left.
J.M

Radiation
You can't see it's toxicity,
you feel it

When I met you, I didn't see how toxic you were,
I felt it.

Yet I let the poison seep in my veins until you stopped my heart.
Funny.
Even when your heart stops,
the feelings don't
J.M

His hands,
pressed down on my shoulders.
using the force of "manhood"
to bring me to my knees
I won't
I can't
But, I must.

If not,
anger will swell in his eyes
disappointment will greet him
I won't
I can't
But, I must.

Just for him, only once
but once became twice,
and twice became
every ******* time.
J.M

"Again?" He asked.
"Later" She said.
But later became right then and right there.
"Not now" became that very second,
that minute.
He didn't accept no,
But she was so broken
She couldn't let go.
J.M

She said she will,
but doesn't mean she wants too.
She said she can,
but doesn't mean she needs too.
She said "not now"
But it didn't stop you.
J.M

Dear future,
I am sorry I had spent my days behind a screen
I am sorry I posted things online I didn't mean

I am sorry for my absence outside
for the times I could of laid underneath the sun  upon the beachside

I am sorry I typed rather than talked
I am sorry I  did things to get me blocked.

I am sorry for living underneath a rock,
I am sorry for getting mad when I phone had a lock.

But most of all, I am sorry for not communicating with you,
I know I could of had a big breakthrough.
J.M