What was it like to love her?

It was like running in the summer rain.
No matter how hard it poured.
You couldn't help but stop.
And dance.
Let her soak you to the bone.
Leave you cold.

what was it like to leave her?

Like sleep to the freezing.

The words ring in my ears like a bell
“She’s so fat I can’t even stand it”
The echo haunts me as I try and hide myself
I try to hunch over, **** in, take up as little space as possible
Become invisible

But I don’t want to be invisible, I don’t even want to be thin
I want to soar like a bird
Stretch my wings and feel the wind run through them like flowers in a field
I’ve been told that I’m too big before and I always assumed they meant in my stomach or my thighs
But really I think they just meant my mind