I hate the way
You make me feel
And the strong effect
You still got on me.

How you turn my world
Upside down and up again

It leaves me dizzy
Hands shaking
Heart shattering

I can't belive
How much I hate
How much
I still love you.

When someone leaves your life
To go on with theirs
There's a lot
To be missed.
Not the miss that remembers
And makes you ponder for days
Not the miss that forgets
And tries to remember.
When someone leaves your life
The miss you will encounter
Will be the one that is not there
The one that happens
Without you noticing it
The one that keeps on going.
What you will miss most
Is all the things that you will *miss

There's nothing I can do
to get you off my mind,
neither from my heart.

Is this what it'll always be?
fake pretending smiles
and flashbacks
of our past?

The pain that comes afterwards
and the hollowness that follows
when it leaves?

There's no love,
there's no sadness,
there's no emptiness,
there's nothing.

Tears.
Under the light of trees
sculpting through the years
more than just water
nothing but more water.

Tears.
Faded in the dark
for what we called our park
in my skin so warm
in my soul so cold.

Tears.
waiting to be wiped
wanting to be freed
echoing in my direction
reforming my generation.

Tears.
With one name written
Yours.
With one purpose
Yours.
Waiting for relief
Yours.

There I was, locked in a cage with a hungry lion.
Certain that it wouldn't harm me.
I was kind and loving with it.
The cage was everything but a cage for me.
But then the lion rejected me and finally attacked me.
Right before leaving the cage, I looked into its eyes and asked for a reason to stay.
I don't like the world outside the cage.

People say
That whenever you hear
Of someone's death
You will still hear
Another two,
For dead always comes
In three.

I wonder
It the same happens
About heartbreak
After all
It leaves you broken
And sometimes
You feel dead inside.

I've had my first
And it hurt like hell
Almost killed me.

Now
I've had my second
And it was
Like a puch in the face
Before you even wake up.

This time
I'm both scared
And excited
To know who will be
My third.

I remember the first time
I whispered your name
like it was already mine
like it was my life.

your touch, so gentle in my skin
and your hand, laying in my chin.

your smile
your eyes
brightening my heart.

always yours
always mine.

The truth is.
I'm not even sure
if I love you
or just long for you.

If what I'm feeling.
is called
love
or pain.

Honestly,
when I think of you
my stomach
doesn't feel
a thousand butterflies
but
a thousand knives
piercing
into my soul.

I'm not sure
if I'm afraid of letting you go
because I love you more than anything.
or just because I don't know how to live
with all this pain.

Tell me if it was worth it
the cries
the fights
the lies
the long nights
because
for
me
it
did.

This is not a poem.
This are the words
I can't say,
This are the words
I'll never say.
The words
No one would hear, and
Perhaps no one
would read.
Pressing 'enter'
Now and then
I won't say
That I miss you
You won't hear that
Neither read it
I'm too proud
I'm too hurt
I'll say
This is  
Obnoxious
But I
Don't know really
What it means
I have just
An idea
Of the feeling
The words gives
Like your name
And perhaps
It will make
This
Seem like a poem
But it is not
Just some spaces
and words
But it is not
A poem
Some words in caps
other not so much
This is not a poem
I am not a writer
or a poet
I'm not even a lover
This is not a poem
And
I'm no longer a person.

I'm no wonder.
I may wonder about everything.
that is the only way
I'll ever be wonder- full.

At night
I'll wonder of
your whereabouts
and if there's someone
sleeping next to you.

In the morning
I'll wonder
if the light of the sun
still makes your
brown eyes glow.

Maybe there's no wonder
that you left
when all you could see
was indecision.

As long as my heart beats.
Long after you leave.
Even now, as even then.
Just as now.
As time hadn't passed.
Never forget.
Don't loose faith.
Right now or in a million years.
Only my love for you.

Together we would stay.
Ended up apart.

Encircling our flaws.
(X) one by one.
Taunting fate.
Running away.
After all.
I beg.
One more time.

Give me a reason.
I will follow.
Embracing it.
More as time passes.
Reaching it.
Enlightening the way.

And if we part.
Unknowing our destiny.
Never forget .
The love I gave.

Even now.
As you leave
My heart beats
Only for you.