eliana

eliana Jun 19

My body craves it, but my mind doesn't.
Next thing you know, the bite goes down my throat.
"Why are you doing this?"
"You're a disappointment."
"You'll never reach your dreams."
"Why don't you just eat less?"
The devil on my shoulder says.

It's not easy. It's never enough. IM never enough.

"Didn't you just eat? You're eating again? "
"Why don't you eat? You've ate nothing but gum.."
"Hey, you look a little glum are you okay?"
"I miss her so much. I had just talked to her yesterday."

i look at myself and i dont like how i look but to others they say i look beautiful. theres also people who say words that hurt. some day they will learn to watch their words.

#bodydysmorphia #eatingdisorder #food #skinny #fat #mind

eliana Jun 19

The Poetry Of Our Bodies

these stories we wear –

scars,
stretchmarks,
wrinkles,

are wrongly labelled
as imperfections.

but aren’t they such beautiful,
courageous signs
of how we have lived?

you are beautiful just the way you are and dont let anyone tell you differently.

#beauty #marks #scars #labels #imperfections #society

Jun 19

Robii

Life of a Loner

Haart
I’m lonely but it’s fine
My cycle of friends is minute
Loners are explorers

If I were a snail, I would stay in my shell as long as I could
If I were the only tree in the forest, I would sit on my root forever
And if I could live in a distinct planet, I would stay till my last breath is taken

In solitude embrace I find my voice
I don’t care about the outside noise
I gain my poise in solitude so I rejoice

Privacy is my sanctuary because peace is guaranteed
My unknown strength unfolds like flowers sowing seeds
The silence and solitary nature of my safe keeps me alive
Now make a move and do what protects your peace

#loners

eliana Jun 19

A Simple Plan

Simple Sam was a simple man.
He lived each day by a simple plan.
Enjoy your life and live while you can.
Make each day count and take a stand.

Stand on the left or stand on the right,
Whichever one you think is right.
Live each day as if your last.
Life's too short and gone too fast.

but life isn't always that simple. or is it?

#life #simple

eliana Jun 19

someday.

Someday you will cry for me
Like I cried for you.
Someday you'll miss me
Like I missed you.
Someday you'll need me
Like I needed you.
Someday you'll love me,
But I won't love you.

#love #broken #angry #regret

eliana Jun 19

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You may hate me now but there was a time I was your wallpaper.

You may hate me now but there was a time where we would fall asleep on the phone.

You may hate me now but there was a time when I was your favorite person.

You may hate me now but there was a time when we would talk every day.

You may hate me now but there was a time when you felt betrayed by all of your friends and you didn't want to be with anyone else but me.

You may hate me now but there was a time when you thought i was the most beautiful person in your eyes.

You may hate me now but there was a time when a certain song you liked would remind you of me.

You may hate me now but there was a time when you missed me after a day of not seeing you.

You may hate me now but there was a time when you thought you would marry me

You may hate me now but there was a time when you loved me.

for that one someone in your life.

eliana Jun 19

if.

but if i was that person you told me not to worry about
would you have fought harder?

if i was the girl you wanted and not the one you "settled for"
would you have stayed?

would you?