Ito - Hello Poetry

Ito Nov 2016

I'm so sad I think I'm happy now,
I run torn and broken yet fully aware,
the pain in my eyes cannot be hidden through lenses,
the sorrow in my heart too heavy to stand,
yet the regrets from yesterday still remind me of you.

The happiness ripped out of my existence to feel your pain,
only a glimpse of your brain,
throughout the blood rain,
I seen your heart dropping from the sky still beating,
longing for "True Love" and my heart made the same greeting.

Although I have all the answers,
I won't reveal one as I am one of several cancers,
a cancer of your mind and your soul,
forever engraved in your existence and taking a toll,
**I promised I was deadly when we met like a drug to a user.

#love #depression #pain #sadness #thoughts #you

Ito Sep 2016

Jaded Eyes

There's an emptiness in my eyes,
it's as if someone dies.
And although that (someone) is me,
I feel free!
For every day is a shadow of the reflection from yesterday.'

The bright glow of my soul is now but a fading, faint light,
at the bottom of the ocean like the darkness of the night.
Shadows upon shadows while I breakdown in your arms,
I'd wait till they set the alarms...
**As I run back to the prison set in my mind.

Heartbreak, death and misery all put together.

#love #depression #hate #pain #sadness #misery #agony

Ito Sep 2016

Incubus in Love

I've got the perfect body,
yet I wish I was somebody,
I've got the perfect voice,
yet I feel I have no choice.
I have the perfect life for someone else...

I hide in the shadows in the daylight.
I only come out at night.
My soul is a black hole,
with only one goal...
to absorb the light you possess.

My heart is scarred from trying to love,
I can make a heart stop with a quick shove.
Never caught in the dark,
it's my birthmark.
**Etched to exist in constant joy to sin.

#love #metaphor #depression #hate #pain #sadness #dark #darkness #deceit #regrets

Ito Aug 2016

1st Love

The night I met you,
you filled the void forever,
I felt loved and longed for...
A lie or my imagination,
I couldn't tell and I'd rather not know.

Every second I missed you,
I was being needy and you were new!
I've had my best moments when we were together,
regardless of the weather.
I'll always have my regrets.

I would still like to know the truth,
I'd fight for you in my youth,
I'd not care of the consequences,
Regardless of my senses.
**I'd lose it all to be with you...

7/31/2016 #Britney

#love #depression #anger #hate #pain #sadness #agony

Ito Aug 2016

Companion

My only companion all of these years,
even after all the beers,
through all of the fears,
unheard by any ears...
Has always been music.

Emotions cannot be seen as well as they are felt,
not even with acting can they be given nor dealt,
only you feel what runs through your mind...
after all the pain settles you're left blind.
Love, Hate & Fear are as essential as the breath you take.

And then there are those who cannot love,
not even if it's kind of.
Those who love to hate,
think they're great,
**The cycle repeats until you're back listening to music again.

#love #depression #life #pain #sadness #music #explicit

Ito Jul 2016

You're Gonna Stop

You're gonna stop now I said!
You're gonna stop drinking so much,
you're gonna stop eating bad foods,
you're gonna stop making dumb decisions.
But most of all you're going to be happy.

Although hApPiNeSs is subjective,
only YOU control it,
the fire within your being dies every day,
you're still drinking, eating and doing as you please.
At the end of the day you are HaPpY!

Mr. Self-Destruct and Mr. Brightside all in one,
you act like you're having fun...
yet inside you're as happy as a criminal,
it's all subliminal.
No one feels what you feel and no one cares like you do.

Deep introspection.

#love #poem #poetry #depression #pain #sadness #dreams #sorrow

Ito Jun 2016

So Cold

Family and friends are supposed to have your back.
Yet everyone seems to think you're whack.
The insanity is back...
taking control of you again like crack.
I won't let you ruin another life. Period.

I'm dying inside and outside.
Yet next month, you're gonna be a bride?!
Really!!! Destroy our lives twice?
Your heart is colder than ice.
The notice was shorter than your pregnancy.

I tried to be strong for you,
breaking my back while drinking the brew.
I slept away the hours and the days away,
all the while staying away from the fray.
**You are thankful for nothing and grateful for everything.

#love #poem #poetry #sad #depression #life #pain #sadness #thoughts #you