Some people enter
your life like a dream but then
leave like a nightmare

6:50 PM
8/10/22

I saw your beauty,
majesty
I was beside myself
with the deepest envy...
I wanted
the light that shined with you
the life that shook them with laughter...
And I found...some of it

I opened up so you could see
a broken piece of my humanity

I loved you with a thousand words
your photo was enchanting
I wish my love returned to me
to free my soul from panting

When I lay in my sheets
Still searching for sleep
I'm confronted
a fight from the gaping the deep
succumb to seduction, both tasty and cheap?
will I fall?
will my sleep still be shameless and sweet?

i sent applications
flooded your mailbox with prayers
would you accept me?
i would've jumped through any hoop
i've always wanted to be a gymnast
but my performance was never good enough
so, tired,
i knocked on the door
and you opened it,
just because you liked me

The leaves flew away when the cold wind blew
I wasn't entertaining enough.
The branches seemed okay,
We walked as we talked
And we lived.
I thought we had something...
I went out on a limb and they snapped.
The cold wind blew
And before I knew
What was left to grasp?
Was anything sturdy?
And then came the root.
But by then I could not trust
Even what I knew to be true
I met You..
As the (cold) wind blew