helena alexis: Favorites

Oct 2017 helena alexis

complexify

i never knew i needed your kiss until i tasted your lips

i never knew i needed your touch until i touched your hips

i never knew i was alive until i felt the fire burning in your eyes

i never knew how cold i was until i felt your warmth

and lastly

i never knew i was yours until i heard your whisper in my ears.

i love you and i always will.

Oct 2017 helena alexis

day 19.

Oct 2017 helena alexis

briannah rae

day 19.

how
do i write
a poem
about what
i'm feeling when
i
don't
know.
i am numb
to the world
and everything
in it.
i don't feel
sad.
i am past that.
i've reached
the point
when sadness
isn't strong
enough.
i don't know
what to do anymore.
i don't know
how to live.
i don't know
how to feel.

31 Day Writing Challenge
Your Feelings

Oct 2017 helena alexis

suicide

Oct 2017 helena alexis

skyler

suicide

i will end my life
not today
not tomorrow
maybe not even in a year from now
but i will leave this world
by my own hand
for i was brought here
not by choice
i was created
without any consent
signed a contract to keep breathing
the signature being my first breath
so i will leave on my own terms
by my own hand
my choice

s.s

#death #life #suicide #end

Oct 2017 helena alexis

random

Oct 2017 helena alexis

eileen

random

your tattoos sum you up
even the ones
that don't have meanings

confusion
with writing
distracting myself
with other things

you take pictures
to get accepted by others
feeling loved with
the many likes
they give you

reunion soon
nobody likes to call you
we probably won't meet
for a couple years

were the type
to sit in silence
with staring eyes
never know what
were feeling

Oct 2017 helena alexis

I want to love him

Oct 2017 helena alexis

ks

I want to love him

i want to love him
but,
his lips taste like
***.
they burn holes into
my skin.
i want to love him
but,
he doesn't need me,
he just wants
two legs and a hole
to get lost in.
i want to love him
but,
he doesn't even know what
the meaning of love is.

#love #pain #meaning

Oct 2017 helena alexis

drug abuse

Oct 2017 helena alexis

sydney

drug abuse

you're a drug
and i can't stop
i can't stop breaking myself down for you
i'll never have enough, and i'll never be enough

i tear myself apart, scrabbling for things to get you
and just an ounce of you makes me feel relevant
it makes me feel here
it makes me feel sane

but you are so toxic
i am losing myself trying to get to you
i am lost

this isn't your fault
it is mine

i need to quit.

#toxic #sad #love #depression #idrk