Let me tell you
About the man I've been dating
He's gentle
He's sweet
He's kind
He learned exactly
How I like my blankets
For when he tucks me in
And he kisses my forehead
When he leaves.
The man
That I've been dating
Isn't afraid to touch me
When we're out in public
He has no problem
Holding my hand
Or locking me in an embrace
Or kissing me despite strangers
Being around.
The man
That I've been dating
Always gives me
The most understanding look
When I'm talking
About a bad day
Or when I'm telling him
About my traumatic past
Or even when
We're discussing random topics.
The man
That I've been dating
Went out of his way
To bring me syrup
When I ran out for my waffles.
The man
That I've been dating
Has cried
Trying to get me
To see how beautiful I am
Because he so strongly believes it.
The man
That I've been dating
Has the most amazing laugh
And my world gets a little brighter
When he's in it
And he makes me feel
Like I'm enough for him
He sometimes even
Makes me feel
Like I'm too good for him...
Something that
I'm not used to.

The man
That I've been dating
Gives me movie kisses
And the most perfect hugs
Like our bodies fit together
And were made for one another

I never knew
Any relationship
Could be like this
Until I met
The man
That I've been dating

I remember the first time I saw us together...
Physically saw us together.
It was in your bathroom mirror the first time I went to your house.
I was wearing your shirt
And you were wearing mine.
And I thought we looked like the biggest mix match couple ever.
Like people would wonder how we got together.
2 years later and I love every single picture
Of us together.
Every single time it makes me so happy.
Just looking at the pictures of us.
Remebering how in love with you I am.
Knowing how far we've come.
Its so beautiful.
We are the most adorable couple.
We try the hardest.
Not only are we making things work
We're loving each other while doing it.
I wouldn't want to make it work with anyone else but you.
Because I'm so in love
With you yelling "wake up it's morning"
And you saying hellooooo when you call me and it eventually escalating to "haaarrrooo"
I'm so in love with the smiles you keep adorned on my face in your presence
The laughs that flow out of me when I'm with you
When your a complete and utter dork and all I can think about when I look at you
Is how lucky I am
How in love with you I am
And how I could never be with anyone else.

I wanted to love you
I wanted you in my arms every night
I wanted you when things got tough
I wanted you even when it wasn't right.

Now I lay here
Alone in my bed
After you've gone
Sad thoughts racing through my head.

I let you in
I let you be there for me.
I trusted you
And you betrayed me.

Now my tears fall on my pillow
Every night I lay on my bed
Cuddle with your sweater
That you left for me
And I think of the first time I saw you
Our first date.
I think of the way you used to stare at me
How your eyes lit up and your smile grew the moment you got out of your car.
The first time I made you dinner
And how you loved it so much you got thirds.
The late nights we spent cuddling on the couch watching Lord of the rings.
And every single time we were intimate.
How you could make me shake.
How you made me feel like I wasn't alone.
I think of how much I love you
Until I fall asleep with tears running down my cheeks.

I never want to stop loving you.
But I have to.
We can never be together
Ever again.

Because you can **** a million times
And still have never made love

I close my eyes
because when i do
I don't feel so alone

because darkness
is more company
than you'll ever know

I could never tell you
of the utter anomalies
running through my heart.

I shouldn't be alive.

We hurt each other
Like no one ever has.
To say we care
There's no reason
It'll only pass.

All we do is use each other
So that we do not feel so alone.
We can lie and call it love.
But we would only be hurting each other more
And it's already too rough.

We yell
We fight
We pull punches
Sometimes all night.
At the best of times
It hardly seems worth it
But it's better then the truth:
We can never quit.

I think in some sick sense
What we have can be considered real.
Real sick
And That was never apart of the deal.

My life is alot different now
Without you
I can go weeks and months
Without even thinking of you
And when I do
It's all pain
The horrible truth of what you did
Pain all the same
And even that
Is getting less and less
Because I have someone new
And because I'm better without you.
I never needed you
To be happy
I never needed you
To love my self
Of course there's plenty of blame
To go around
But I'm not the one that cheated
I'm not the one that didn't care
One day I'll wake up
With my Love's arms around me
And you'll be nothing
But a painful memory.
A time where I
Naive and gullible
Thought you loved me
Thought you cared
But I was just ensnared.
A prisoner to your whim
A slave to your needs
You got what you wanted
And I got to leave.

But now my boo
He holds my heart
He always makes me laugh
And says sorry when he farts
He loves to cuddle
And he loves to kiss
Being with him
Has been such bliss.
He listens to me
And helps me fix my problems
It's always an adventure with him
And no one can top him.

In a way
I'm glad you happened
I'm glad you came into my life
And I'm glad you left it
You helped me see
What a relationship shouldn't be
And my only regret
Is that it took me so long to realize it.
You couldn't have been
A more perfect teacher
And this is the last I'm writing about you
Because you aren't worth my time
Not worth my words
And not worth my energy.

I wake up in the morning
You beside me
You smile as you look at me.
"Morning beautiful" you whisper.
You kiss me.
Kids burst into the room
Jump onto the bed
Calling us mommy and daddy.
They look like mixtures of us.
Your hair
My eyes.
Your nose
My mouth.
They ask us what we're doing that day.
The day progresses
You go to work
Kiss me goodbye
And just like that
Our day turns to mine.
And already I miss you.
But this is not our life.
This is the future I saw with you.
My fairytale I saw with you.
The one that didn't end when I walked down the aisle.
The one I saw with us growing old together.
I didn't see you
Leaving me for someone else.
I didn't see you
Never loving me.
Never in my wildest nightmares
Did I ever predict
That you would leave me
And that you never loved me.
I saw a future with you.
Accidental and flawed.
But real
And true.
A future that can never be.
Because you left me
For her

A boy stared at me today
He's staring his life away
The more he looks the more he should know
That I am not here
               And I should go...

Like my hand
On my chest
In the midnight hour
It's beating for you

In the sun
It feels so cold
You can do anything
As long as you hold
my hand
on my chest
My heart is racing
its racing...

In the dark
we are so close
you feel so warm
put your head
on my chest
Can you feel the
the careening beat?
of my heart?

Put your lips
Against my own
and just like the sweetest sound
I never want it to end.

Put your arms
around my waist
pull me close
keep me warm.

The night's so cold
but I'm in your arms
you've replaced the lonely nights
with pure bliss

Just one more hour
just one more kiss...

Don't you know
You were my sun
In a dark universe
You were the light
On a cloudy day
You were my sight
When I was blind to see
Why couldn't I see
You were always
the best part of me
and though your away
In my heart you'll always stay
And when I fail to see
I hope the day will come
When you will come back to me.