she tells me to **** it up like a sponge

shut my eyes tight and bite on my tongue

i can't help but feel like the kiss of death

one day i'll look around to find nothing left

everything i touch turns to dust

dirt, grime, nothingness, and rust

always chasing shadows

don't know where you'll go

will this ship sink or stay afloat?

we don't know, we can't know



but please remember this

that everyone gets one wish

ultimate bliss

you're always going to be on my list



i live in your brown eyes, die in your smile

everything you do makes this all worthwhile

i would travel a million miles

got me caught up in the pile

i've been drained of any and all emotions

i hope you have the good fortune
of making new friends wherever you
go after this place.

i hope your heart is always filled
with love
instead of empty, aching pain.

i hope you meet someone sweet
who laughs at all your jokes.
these upon these
are my sincerest hopes.

i hope they captivate your thoughts
and cause you to forget all about me.
i hope you can move on

because i know i won't be as lucky.

my heart sunk to

the pit of my chest


"oh silly, silly girl

don't you know

boys like that

are boys that

girls like you

never get?"

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never go home again.
My room will sit unused,
A capsule frozen in time,
A snapshot of how I was.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my dog again.
She will sit at the front door
Waiting for me and wondering,
Why I never came home.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never graduate from high school.
My yearbooks will sit stacked
Stopped short of their goal,
Missing years that should have been.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my mom again.
She will sit distraught,
Planning a funeral
For a child taken from her.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my friends again.
They'll sit together, missing me.
One empty seat among them,
A constant reminder of their loss.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my little sister again.
She will sit through high school
Knowing I can't guide her through,
That she has to figure it out alone.

If I die in a school shooting
My school will be stained.
Pools of students lives will sit,
Blood tattoos on the brick structures,
Marks of death ground into it.

If I die in a school shooting
Everyone will wear black.
They'll send their thoughts and prayers
To a town marred by death,
Forever to be the home of a shooting.

If I die in a school shooting
Will the world change?
Or will I become one of hundreds  
Of kids who have to die?
What will it take?

If things continue this way
Children will have to live in fear.
They'll look over their shoulders
Always worried and wondering,
If they'll die in a school shooting.

he shot her and left her to die,

her blood the color of summer's roses

dripping down the ***** cement


no one wondered what the last thing

that ran through her mind was


they all could tell by the way she cried out

"the least he could have done was **** me quick."


she learned that day that

a lover dies a thousand times

the hardest possible way

"i wouldn't do that for someone who is just a friend."
you are right
we are not just friends
i suspect we were for a short period of time

but then the tsunami came and completely washed out our entire foundation built on friendship

i built you a city of love — unrequited, i've come to find; with a love song on each corner, one of your many many virtues etched in my mind

all in vain, all in vain it was — for i knew you were taken and had been for quite some time; still i chased after you, i admit the fault was mine

my confession crumbled the buildings, collapsing the marble and the stone all around

my city of love became a town

yet still i loved, so deeply and so true, trying to convince myself that i had a shot with the incredible, inevitable you

it ended the way it began — you ran and you ran and you ran
i watched you go, your words echoing in my head

you are correct
we are not just friends
you are a coward
i am a fool

and this is the end