Heritage is a big part of everyone's lives,
My heritage i used to hide like a disguise.
I was always ashamed of being Hispanic,
having good hair and good skin,
I never looked at myself and loved what was within.
I was ashamed of my last name that belonged to my father who left,
see, that's the Hispanic way causing me so much stress.
I look up to my mother who has always been there,
She didn't need no man to succeed.
I wanted to be like my mom so bad, a true Hispanic queen.

The only thing that makes me happy is my family.
We may argue everyday but when i'm hurt their my remedy.
They always have my back
especially when i tend to lack.
I might not have the best relationships with them
but i treat each one of them like a gem.
so special and unique in their own ways
and they all glow on cloudy days.
My family is my breath of fresh air
when i need a little guidance, i know that they will always be there.

love is just a word with many meanings.
I can say i love you but not really mean it.
the word love can be very misleading.
A four letter word, yet has the power to be deceiving.
its a shame how many times i felt "love",
yet to look back and realize it wasn't really love, it was me trying to find someone to love because i couldn't love myself.
I have tried so hard just to get hurt over and over again.
Everyone i was hurt by, i claimed that i loved.
Love makes you do crazy things they said.
But what is this "love" they are talking about, where can i find it?
The only "love" that i experienced was the love that was hiding.

If i stand tall,
Would you try to break me?
If i said i wouldn't,
would you try to make me?
these are the questions i ask myself
questions i implore so i don't feel like a book on a shelf.

I wake up to the morning sun,
with only the thought of him.
what did i do to deserve this?
why are we only friends?
You told me you weren't ready for anything more.
When i finally moved on, that option left the door.
I know it sounds crazy that i could actually care for you,
but you meant a lot to me so i couldn't stand for it.
I try to make "us" work even though there was no "us".
you didn't put a label on it so now you see why i would fuss.
imagine if i would want you because i was just bored,
How would that make you feel, because it made me sore.
Of course i tried to move on with someone else, but when i saw you with her my whole heart just fell.
If only i could delete the thought of you in my life,
i could really move on and everything would feel right.

forgive, forget
i don't want to do that yet
i forgave you, might you forget
but you did the same thing and had no regrets.
if you were sorry why would you do it again?
i was hurt that you decided to pretend.