I find myself
wanting to be surrounded by people
One, two, ten, a crowd
I'll invite the entire world

and yet i am alone

"What happened to the pit?"

The rain was rushing down again
Threatening my footing
Loosening the soil
Turning it into mush beneath my soles

"I'm back." I said.

"What happened to the umbrella?"

Rain poured down the walls
Releasing whatever grip the land had
A jagged pebble rolled its way down
It struck my umbrella and ripped it open

"I'm soaked." I said.

What am i doing up at 2:53 am
Thinking about the time you

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As the moon waned,
You did, too.

I chose to stay.
I chose to wait.

I prayed for the orb in my night sky.
All i saw was darkness.

I received word
That the moon had been destroyed.

Good-bye.

I tried to tune the radio
The waves were being erratic
I tried to twist the knobs
But then i was left with static
No hums, no notes
White noise screamed its way
Into the hollow canals of my ear

Oh how i miss the gentle breeze of the piano
The twang of country guitars
Played by those whose voices
Come from the deepest corners of their hearts
I have lost my ability to hear.
Your silence spoke volumes.

I can't hear you anymore.

*Can you hear me?

It wasn't a lie to you
But maybe it was to me
I didn't want to drag you down further
To a road whose end i couldn't see

You say it's all me
Sure, take none of the blame
I pray that one day you see,
I wasn't meant to take your name.

It was a flight to the familiar
Or so i thought
I didn't mean to start a war
I didn't expect to feel so caught

We had good times.. a good love
I thought we could go back
Thinking you were sent from above
Especially when you attacked

You smothered me with love and kisses
Took me higher than ever before
You took away all my stresses
I never knew what you had in store

Aa time passed,
You made alcohol the devil.
Burning my throat, forgetting the past
Maybe you thought that this could last

I had to bring it to an end
This is not where i envisioned myself to be
Yes, my lips eere mine to lend
But now they want to be set free

Maybe we'll meet again
Maybe in different bodies
Maybe in a time where we don't say "Amen"
Maybe where one of us could be "Daddy"

So I sit and stare a blank air in the sky
troubled drowsing in darkness, deafening
drowned in silence and violent volumes
lost in the nothingness of everything
but the hole in the whole of the heavens
pale and putrid, impurely white
everything I've grown to love and hate about you
squeezed into a tiny sphere in the sky.
songs and silhouettes and somber singing
ears ringing from voices long gone
As if nothing but you remained,
as if everything melts and disappears
and I'm simply lost in the unfathomable
the deepest recesses of your calming smile
maybe I was too much, perhaps I was too little
in any case I wasn't right then,
not right to fit into the pale white dot.
The one that broke the obsidian field
made from molten earth cooled
volcanic and panicked I shattered

I was supposed to be steady
solid and stoic. Just like earth

but you shook me. In waves you shook me
in waves and quakes of pale light
I tossed and turned like nightmares or spasms
formed chasms in my chest while all the rest
stayed silent in their quarters whispering
"It's going to be ok"
"It's going to be alright"
But what about me?
The earth that holds all up
the ground beneath every foot that walks
every heart that beats
every lover long lost
who will hold the ground and whisper
solemn whispers to quell the aches inside
who decides to hold me down and stop the crumble
and humble enough to kiss the soil underneath their feet
when will I ever kiss the moon
and impart in her ear every single second
seen through my eyes
stories of everyone that dies
all that rise, but maybe I wont
maybe I'll never hold the moon.
but I still hope I will.