And then the rain drenched my hands.
Looking up I saw the sun angry with me.
I was pelted with my past transgressions
but it's alright, it's cool, Every bad seed deserves to drown.

Maybe it was the poison I fed myself everyday?
"With time it will fade and become a shadow leaving 'fore the sun comes"
Maybe it was the crazy notion I mixed in my potions
"bury the past, hurry up fast, never look back"
Maybe it was me all along?
Maybe, Just maybe....

Under
    The Scope
        Like a Brown scrawny escapeless  tiny

        Bug
-__-

I thought I was done
but love aint done with my yet
when is it ending?

The sun has come.
The mist has gone.
We see in the distance...
our long way home.
I was always yours to have.
You were always mine.
We have loved each other in and out of time.
When the first stone looked up at the blazing sun
and the first tree struggled up from the forest floor
I had always loved you more.
You freed your braids...
gave your hair to the breeze.
It hummed like a hive of honey bees.
I reached in the mass for the sweet honey comb there....
Mmmm...God how I love your hair.
You saw me bludgeoned by circumstance.
Lost, injured, hurt by chance.
I screamed to the heavens....loudly screamed....
Trying to change our nightmares into dreams...
The sun has come.
The mist has gone.
We see in the distance our long way home.
I was always yours to have.
You were always mine.
We have loved each other in and out
in and out
in and out
of time.

And do you love him?
My heart gnaws on my conscience.
Does the Friendzone count?

Freezing night
Morning heavily damaged
Freezing damage
Freezing
Freezing damage
Don't yet know the full damage to this freezing morning.

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And then the sun whispered and it's breath warmed my neck.
The Sun's fingers traced the length of my arm and held my hands.
I rested on the Sun's chest looked into it's eyes.
How can the Sun be so close yet so far away.

And then the Moon whispered and it's voice was saturated with solitude.
The Moon's fingers clasped onto mine and pulled me along
Deep into the forest.
Struggling to keep with it's pace I saw the eyes of the moon
Hollow, empty, nothing.
How can the moon present a glowing yet be a illuminated tragedy?

I shouldn't fall for a guy with blue eyes
But man don't they hit me every time.
I shouldn't call for a guy who lives me tongue tied
but man his lips they sure look fine

And we can not stop coming in like a wrecking ball
So clear all the tables from your wide mess hall.
we bout to damage up, We bout to trash it up
We bout to rip all of your paper love.

It's time to begin but with the beast inside
We tend to stop and think, then we let it fly
And no matter if you cry
All our "pretty faces"at some point have to die.

As I saw the Mountain Range,
I heard the wind call.
It spoke to the many trees
Cradling the leaves that fall.
I observed the conversa-
Come again?
No, I rather not discuss that.
No, I rather not discuss the moments of past.
The sun seemed to withdraw its arms leaving the night in charge of handling the Mountains, the trees, me.
An echo of howls tore into the night,
repetition of whispers circulating on the lips of the wind
Caught my covered ears.
I shouldn't have come to the Mountain Range.
It's an endless echo the wind carries on it's lips.
I need to leave.

And then with the moon
high above me, watching me
I lavished in pain.

All of the secrets
drained into puddles thickly
Exhausted I slept.

I was ****** with the sun putting aflame my skin.
I was broken and hanged before many men.
I was burned, hands tied, with no proof to my sin.
I was showered with pellets, toxic air burned from within
I was shot in the back, forced to fall and spin.
I was held under water fatally deprived of oxygen.
What else does society have in store as they condemn?

And then the pieces
of the heart drained through the cracks
Forever Broken.

And then just like that
signed my name on the farewell card
I wonder who's next.

I feel different.
More in-tuned to emotions
yet more in-tuned to reason.
I just can't be one without the other.

He carries remnants of a broken child.
Cradles the pieces as he tries
To silence the echoing cries.
He provides love with strong tight hugs
But the pressure isn't enough.
He can't continue on nurturing himself.

"Be careful, I bite."
I said to he who came close.
He ignored my heed.
He came closer still.
And took a hold of my hands.
"Don't worry Same here."

Give me your jewels you've hidden so well,
Contained and buried deeply in your heart.
Unearth and place 'em inside my pail
So I may take 'em and remove the shards.
I will polish 'em, before I tell
If your jewels, your love, is what I have sought.

I consumed your agitation, drew it from your lips.
As i felt the round edges of your aching desire.
You held nothing back as you took my love
And led me to an ocean of burning fire.
Our love consulted with our hearts
And they all agreed,
This love we have can't by others be acquired.

I loved a poem before it was written onto paper.
I held it close for days.
Whispered my love as I caressed it's words lengthy and smooth
But to love something you must let it go.
I let my poem go.

We're the leaf falling.
Moving, carried slowly
Touching, scraping the sidewalk,
Ripping, tearing under feet
Drying, crumbling into tiny pieces
Scattered, spread, carried in separate directions.
We're the leaf falling.

The audience sits taking in the last scene of the show.
The strain of the chairs echoed.
I guess that's it.
We ran a great show.
You were a great cast member.
Tonight is the beginning of the end.
Tomorrow, you will be on Broadway
And I will sit and write screenplays instead of performing.

My sanity, like sand, drained through my fingers
Into a puddle of lost perception.
I heard the cries of the rocks as they were chucked at his window
They were complaining of being moved from their homes.
I tasted the copper of my transgressions as he forced them into my stomach with a closed judgmental fist.
Earth held me up as I sunk into the ground with laughter
For he neglected to taint, to bully, my heart stained and shattered.
Moon, why must you tease the shadows with your translucent bony fingers?
Shadows, why must you retreat and find solace in solitude?
I'm alone and yet the wind whispers "You're not alone" as it runs its breath across the back of my neck.
The Earth on my skin soothes with lips soft and moist keeping me calm and collected.
My sanity, like sand, drained from the gaps of my fingers into a puddle of lost perception.

With a heavy fist
Death came rapping on your door.
Calling out your name.
Death begged for a kiss
Death wanted a little more
Death, for you it came.
It couldn't resist

I'm in love and I am scared.
A child lost in the forest of his feelings, hearing the muffled cries of past love.
A child with no flashlight trudging along the shard filled path desperately trying to not fall on the past.
I'm in love and I am scared.

These Stereotypes
are the barriers I face
Time To break em all

They told my place
is to tend the store
Tend the customers.
Cut the tobacco
in a just straight, just fine way
Tend the customers
But I feel my place
and it ain't in that old store
tain't tend customers.

Let us
Let us play with your look
Let us love and sing and wonder
Let us reason ministries
Let us go then you and I

And the
And the mountains echoed
And then there were none
And the band played on
And the waters turned to blood.

I saw the future and it was seeping with despair.
The women forever held there breaths as the children longed for death.
The men drunkenly gouged logic from everyone's head
Consumed The logic then fell, falling, dead.
And it continued for none of them cared.

And then you walked in.
Every step you took froze time.
But froze not my heart.

Stationary,
Waiting,
For change.
The wind picks it up,
It’s flying,
Dancing.
Then it falls,
Settling onto the street.

And then I held my tongue
Blocked the words that were to fall
Took my time to turn
And walk away
But something stayed behind
A piece of myself,
A few unspoken words.
I turned once to observe
What departed.
And eyed him, with curiosity taking point.
He gathered the air
With a breath
A deep inner sigh.
Trying to collect what wasn't said
I turned to face the front
Denied my heart’s intent
To go back
And walked away
Was it the right thing to do?

Liking the Straight guy
Is like liking the white wall
It's there to amuse
but won't catch if you fall.

Remnants of my heart,
They crackled in the fire
were scorched in the flames.
Oh I should've learnt
That my heart's true desires
would contort in pain.
They told from the start
Closet Case leaves you tired
As they hide in shame.
But I could not part
For I gave my heart entire
Only I to blame.
But I regret nothing for this was love
Harsh reality, but none the less love.

I run
My fears struggle to clasp my arms and hold me in place
Drizzling rain coats me
The world's problems are gone for a moment, drip off my hands and into puddles
A breeze greets me with a touch so gentle
Lost in the moment where love seemed to reach me

It's time to head inside
*But I rather stay out

When I was born I was a blank canvas
You outlined with words carefully placed with a soothing voice.
You drew out what you wanted with rights and wrongs you forced onto me.
You colored me in once you felt satisfied.
I don't want to be your canvas anymore.

I am a thief.
I am a child who doesn't know what he wants.
I am a ******.
I am a lost.
I am the cause every trouble.
I am not worthy.
I am nothing.

And yet I try to prove it all wrong.

Happiness?
Happiness, lives not here.
It will never slumber in the chambers of my heart.
Look else where for happiness.
For already has it past, Happiness's cart.

I was taught many, a many lessons ago
To fall in love with the first one I meet.
To obey the orders and not question the theme.
To follow the Simon and follow my dreams.

I was taught many, a many realities ago
To lock my heart for the one with the key.  
To break the rules when arise a need.
To be the Simon with achievable deeds.

And then I heard faintly his voice
A muffled whisper in the back of my mind
Beckoning me to embrace fully his memory.
And then I saw him walk alongside the streets
Blurred as if he were distantly
Making his way towards me.
But I, a lover only in dreams of day,
Looked the other way.
But I, a navigator of unrequited roads,
Turned up the radio and drove further into the cold.

The cries of the world
an orchestra full of pain
echoed in my dreams.

And it was time for our goodbyes
but as we embraced for the last time
I looked to the sky
"I don't want to let go"

And as the sun shone
I whistled a melody
It's notes were laughter.
And as the wind spoke
I teetered 'long the pond's edge
whistling smiles.
And as the clouds roamed
I wrote poems in the sky
Whistling his name.

How can you look at me
   With those cool ocean eyes?
Whenever you do
   It hits me every time.
I get lost in your seas
   With unrequited waves
hitting me
drowning me
There's no way to save
   No way to save
There's no way to save
It's this heart's demise
It hits me every time
Those cool ocean eyes.

And then I lost myself in your meadows
  A foolish thing to do.
I took in the scent of flowers petals
   A foolish thing to do.
I warmed at your Sun's "hello"
  A foolish thing to do.
Why I fell for this fellow?
   He had a pleasant view.

And then I found solace as I held you in my hands.
Your ruff edged pages in between my fingers
provided the security that I could never find in reality.
And as I turned your pages, an aroma of memories
came into my mind.
You, book, make me feel alright.

Let’s stay this way.
Old white T-shirt stained with grass
     on the floor with the axe cologne lingering in my nostrils
Visit my hair with your fingertips
      don’t be afraid.
Eventually place your hand on my cheek
      to steady your lips as you give me a gentle kiss.

Look into my eyes
Oh! How I love looking into the oceans you carry
     My soul ventures with the intent of being lost.
Visit my arms and I will be the gravity
    holding you to my chest
        as you listen to our heart.
Eventually let’s stay in a position
     where one listens to our heart
         as we fall asleep.

Let your thoughts of the outside world
       Jump the tracks, fall into a river
            And drown.
Only the thoughts of you and me
       Should be kept from falling
            Should be kept
               On the tracks.
Visualize you and me, hand in hand, ring in ring,
        Just this visualization is needed nothing more.
Eventually the love between us will be greater than all