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  Jun 2014 Forgotten Dreams
kunal arora
I just wish if I could be in your mind
know what you are thinking n what all goes in it all the time
coz I wanna be the perfect one for you and make you forever mine.
Her feelings are burried deep down
like the pharohs of old.

She pushes on and carries on
Protecting her family
by bringing them endless laughter.

But

Her Humor is drying out
like a puddle in a drought.

The court jester is stumbling
struggling to hold on
She is reaching out for help

The court jester is crumbling
right infront of everyones eyes.
But she does it in secret

with a slice of her wrist here
and a swipe at her legs there.

She puts on her plastic smile
and brings laughter to everyone around her.
Read my poem
The Story Behind the Court Jester,
it ties somewhat into this one
I try to keep it together
I try not to show it.
But I'm falling apart inside.

The pain is becoming harder to ignore
The tears are getting harder to push back.

But I keep pushing it away
I wont let it out.
There are people out there
Who are more important than me.

But its still there
just below the surface.
it keeps building and building.
and I fall back onto my old ways of coping

Cutting
puking
denying myself sleep.

Why does this keep happening to me?

But I know why.
Because I keep it bottled up
I wont let it free

because there are other people out there
who are much more imprtant than me
They need somone to be there for them

I'll be fine
I'll be ok
because I dont matter.
I'm not worth it.
  Jun 2014 Forgotten Dreams
stargazer
As an impending doom gripped her at night,
Her demons rose up and announced a war,
She fought with such courage, such zeal,
But that wasn't enough to take them down all.

As the battle continued, she ought to still fight,
Blood was spilt on the battlefield till dawn,
That night her body covered with scars,
Not just scars, but bruises too,
So beautiful, yet so vile
These were the battle wounds of a determined young girl,
This was the proof that she was a fighter for life.

With a heart full of hope and such sparkle in her eyes,
The demons came and took it all away.
They left her with nothing, except anything self-destructive,
This was all so unproductive.
It was all in her head
Happiness was just an illusion,
She was lost in her own confusion,
She couldn't drown her demons,
Because they knew how to swim.

Finally one day she dropped her silver sword,
She swallowed her pride as emptiness surrounded her soul,
She dropped her big smile as her lungs gasped for air.
Ans she whispered to herself
                                 "I can't do this anymore"
Just because the scars heal doesn't mean the pain does too
she dances on the soles of her exhausted feet
moving her arms with grace and femininity
she kept her balance as the beads of sweat ran down her forehead
with great posture she bowed and no one clapped, so she remained graceful and left the stage
I just love dance it keeps me sane
soft petal pink lips
caramel ice cream skin
big brown eyes that say come in
and a heart that's made of diamonds
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