Elioinai

May 2017

Born

We were diamonds
Riding on a carriage of dreams
that kept us going

Courageous despite smoky years
eyes on the price
believing its what we wanted

But it ain't what most people think it is
You follow it and it becomes an obsession
and you stray further from reality

You keep wanting and not living
Life becomes a dream
all you had to be was happy

Don't chase a false reality
contentment is what matters

Stuck
In a world filled with greed
and cynic beings
longing for What never was

Elioinai May 2017

go

He doesn't understand . . .
He let go . . .
I let go.
He doesn't want to let go . . .
I let go.
Bye.
Goodnight.

He hasn't realized how confused he is, or how happy I am without him. He is good, but not good for me.

Elioinai May 2017

and calm

I pleasure not
in memory of your kisses
Like sculptures in the sand
a child sure will stay
until bubbly waves wash away
the glorious towers
of yesterday
I like how the beach returns
Smooth again and calm

Elioinai May 2017

glass life

I work with hands of glass
Such tiny victories!
to see the little fractures heal
in rest and quietness and joy
Such tiny victories!
after toil takes a heavy toll
and breaks me open once more
Such tiny victories!
breathe and laugh as the heavy moments pass
remember peace will come at last
Even if my hands are always glass

I'm currently dealing with morning depression, caused by my hormone imbalance. My life is good, I have wonderful friends and family, and I have Jesus, but it's very difficult. I often think I'm in a better place, and do too much, or get excited, or I worry and get anxious just a little, and it has a snowball effect on my mind and health.

#depression #weak #glass #work #rest #joy #peace #heal #grow #health #sick

Elioinai Apr 2017

Rewrite Me

Suffering is Suffering
and Pain is Pain
Any such hand can move the quill
deeper in your heart of ink
Rewrite your story
and Embolden the heading
Love
Dripping down in red and black
Salty water smudge the edges
but only for a while
The quill comes back to sharpen them
Carving like a sword
away the imperfections

Elioinai Apr 2017

fullness found in sorrow

I hold a ripped and scattered rose
but new ones bloom inside my palms

I have moments of intense sadness, but an under current of peace. I am so much stronger and joyful and loving. I don't enjoy letting go of this relationship, but the very relationship itself strengthened me for its end. I am better than before.