Elioinai

Elioinai Apr 2017

it's over
I say
it's over
I cry
it's over
I smile
it's over
I weep
it's over

The end of a relationship brings so many different perspectives and insights. I feel like I have a different one every hour. I felt blind during the relationship, I couldn't see the man as clearly as I felt I should, as clearly as he claimed to see me. And that's ok.

Elioinai Apr 2017

Fullness end

I wasn't sure
to take it as a sign
or quiet gift in Spring
But the rose had fully bloomed
Open orange petals with a hint of blush
This Easter morning
alone upon its bush

"Love her and watch her blossom"
The time for that love is gone, but I hope you continue to see me blossom

Elioinai Apr 2017

morning glory

I don't know why
my first thoughts in consciousness
are often joyous praise and hope
in the moment before I turn to fall asleep
for a few moments more
My soul exuberantly greeting
though silent
My God

Elioinai Apr 2017

not yet

relief
but
not release
one night more
but nothing can speak for the future
not yet

Another day ends without the breakup that has threatened round us pouring upon our heads

Elioinai Apr 2017

An ethereal concreteness

I have longed for him with despair
But for You it is with a Bright Hope
a soft and resting air
I have no promise of his return
as I imagine my fingers in his hair
But I feel Your invisible arms
Stronger than his physical being could dare

Elioinai Mar 2017

cathedral falls

Stark walls
pressed between the melting wax of stained glass
My eyes adjust to a new focus
even as I fight to see more clearly
in this muddy rubble
What rises up?
Beautiful buried things
Awake at last

Come Forth
And dance upon the dead

Freedom requires the death of lies. Sometimes the dying process is overwhelming

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Elioinai Feb 2017

breathe yet

Every day I lay my head down upon my pillow
Is a day of victory
Every day I rise again to see the sun
And another day of victory
to sleep
to rise
To breathe again
To praise your name and know your heart
in each one
is my joy and duty
But even if I forget
A day of victory
it still is yet
For I breathed the breath you gave me